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Feb 2012

2012-02-29T23:30:00.001+08:00

Feb 2012.. A short month..

The CNY hype took awhile to die down and yes it's the beginning of a new work year.. Thinking about that.. One year ago around this time I was thinking where would be future lie.. It seemed bleak for a moment and if I knew where I would be now.. I probably would not have worried too much..

There's nothing much to write about other then making cheesecake and starting to play in the main band..

After the reviews about the cheesecake made during Christmas.. I finally made the second set.. It was not bad too just that I did not had much time to share it.. With those I did.. Lucky them cause there was a birthday girl around that day.. :).. If I have more time I'll likely start to do more cooking or baking.. Retirement hobby??

Playing in the main band.. This came out of the blue when I least expected it.. That weekend there was a lack of bassist so I was asked to fill in for that week.. Somehow it did not turn out well and did not play eventually.. Not long after I got the email scheduling me into the main band.. Funny.. But God works in ways to keep his children near him.. Hope it works out well.. :)

Haven't had much sports recently as well but Captain's ball was more interesting than expected.. In the rain and thankfully no injuries..

Time to research on cameras.. Mine's long overdue..

Jan 2012

2012-01-31T23:02:00.001+08:00

Brand new year..

Somehow this year isn't that high profile nor big is any sense.. Wonder why.. The year started smoothly.. Games and entertainment.. Same old stuff.. Is life getting that mundane??

At least there's the Lunar New Year.. Or so I thought.. Was equally slow and quiet..

Wow.. January certainty came and gone.. Hope February will be better.. Cheers..

Dec 2011

2011-12-31T23:03:00.000+08:00

December.. Time of the year again to prepare for Christmas and the new year.. Though this year Christmas didn't seem to be that big.. Somehow seem to be quite busy at work.. Couldn't really enjoy the festive period.. Might have been the reservist which took away some time..

The tiring week started on 12 Dec.. Had a friend's wedding (on a Monday night).. Followed by nights trying to find gifts.. Had the chance to meet my interns.. Still as stressed looking when I last saw them.. Thankfully the movie was at 10pm on Friday and I could make it on time.. Next day (or night) chilled at the Pump room and guess what.. The couple who played at the Great World branch was at Clarke Quay that night.. Chris and Danielle?? They make a really good duet with her voice and his guitar.. It's those performances that make you want to pick up that guitar again..

Following week was just as bad.. 2 dinners plus even more last minute rush for gifts.. So much for exercising.. This time ended up at Wala Wala.. Again.. Didn't catch the band's name but I like the bassist.. Has a lot of nice progressions.. Then the next day had to get up at 9.. Best part was that I only got to her place at 11am.. The reason.. Shall not say.. And that was the first time I'd attempted to make a cheesecake.. And based on reviews it went quite well.. Cannot blame me that those guys though it was from me alone leh.. No greeting notes to write our names down.. Plus I could not stick all in time.. But thanks to the experienced person that it turned out well.. As for those who did not get the present.. We should be making another one soon.. Don't miss it ya.. The next best thing was that I got a pair of street soccer shoes on Christmas day.. Nice gift ya.. Along with the wallet.. Thanks..

And the following week was suppose to be slack.. Only had rest on Tuesday and Friday from 8 to 10pm.. Else was out again to settle stuff or dinner.. The AGM was good and a suggestion would be a quarterly meeting instead.. Went to visit my grandma after that.. Shag and fell asleep wherever I went.. So much for not sleeping.. Other than that it was a good end to the year..

Busy end to the year.. Both for work and personal life.. 12 months ago I wouldn't guess I'll be where I am now.. Not that I'm surprised but the question comes whether I want to do this for the rest of my life.. I'll let you know again in 12 months time.. Until then enjoy life and hopefully a new list of resolutions come soon.. No more long breaks from now onwards.. Really draining..

All the best in the new year then.. Cheers!!

Nov 2011

2011-11-30T22:12:00.000+08:00

Nov 2011.. Year end coming.. Not that I'll be busy closing accounts but it's the time of the year!! This year not going anywhere.. Maybe in Jan..

Back to the month's stuff.. Finally can enjoy the evening after exams.. Plus got holiday and Reservist.. Results out in Dec though.. Hope can clear both.. Doesn't need to be high marks.. As long as it's cleared..

First soccer session at nite since.. Erm.. A long long time ago.. Super unfit.. Cant run.. Sure die during IPPT (Failed anyway).. The result of not running for 4 months.. I'm still looking for my wonderful pair of goal scoring boots.. None nice so far.. Christmas present anyone?? :) Btw was too shag to get up the next day for the Sunday School Outing (Opps)..

Next item was the DnD.. One thing was that I was suppose to be in the department team performing.. But due to bad scheduling and not so productive people.. The guys part was scrapped.. Good to a certain extend.. At least I didn't have to humiliate myself with the performance. The other thing.. I think 6 iPads were given out lo.. And I didn't get one.. Sad!!! The prizes were quite attractive with the top prize a trip for 2 to Taiwan.. Not that the prizes were highlights but my department table got the best dress table award (Seriously make-up makes a huge difference to ladies).. That was the up part.. Until the following monday.. (ICT)

Yup.. Had a low-key ICT for 5 days.. Kinda waste of time but I was glad to be there.. Reservist has been good so far.. With all the supper.. (Go look at where I went during that week).. The biggest bummer was on Thursday where we had to leave the camp at 6.30.. Reach the site at 7am and did nothing until 11am.. At least I did some reading.. And a lot of sleeping.. The only action part was from 11pm to 2pm where we play the wonderful role of hokkien civilians.. (basically didn't respond to any english or chinese instructions).. Then.. Sleep again until transport came.. Now you understand why it was better to be here than at work rite.. The other thing which happened was on Friday when we were suppose to out-pro at 1pm.. Some cockster did not pay his 'charge'.. Delayed everyone by 3 hours sia.. Since he couldn't pay his charge he was sent to DB.. To make things worse.. No one wanted to fork out the $300 fine to help him.. (He did not pay back the previous charge).. The result of not being trustworthy..

The above incident nearly caused me to miss collecting my hdd.. Been nearly 2 month since I sent the hdd for data recovery.. And because of that.. I couldn't bring the ball for the soccer session.. Snowball effect..

The other thing which is worth mentioning was that a sister of mine text me about something I mentioned nearly 2 years ago.. It's a testimony that your actions speak louder than words.. The truth of those words I spoke surfaced during this tough time of hers.. Lesson learnt is to always be prepared to have words of encouragement ready.. You do not know how your actions can impact others.. Be a light to the world..

To add on to that.. That was the Sunday service topic.. As well as the Youth Camp.. As written in a brother's email.. These guys and unique and are like fluorescent light tubes warming up.. Cant wait for all the lights to show their true colours and lit up the church.. 'Starter' better do your jobs..

That's quite a lively November.. Now for my results and a possible trip back to Thailand.. Cheers!! :)

Oct 2011

2011-10-31T23:32:00.000+08:00

October 2011

Congratz to Lydia on your wedding..

Finally visited my Grandma after nearly a month.. Though I don't see her often I get the feeling she stills remember who I am (even though she still thinks I'm still in the army).. Really reminds me of how fragile life is and her commitment to simply take care of my when I was young.. Unfortunately I didn't realise the significance of it until it was too late.. I began to be more concerned about her when she started to have difficulty walking and losing her memory (that's why I'm still in the army).. And the new lifts are in operation (Couldn't it be done earlier??).. If you ask me where does my lessons learnt about family life.. It's from her and not from the social studies textbooks.. Exams over and I can finally visit her more often..

Music Ministry Meeting.. Unfortunately I've not been playing in main.. And due to the timing of things.. It seems quite difficult to commit too much time to it as well.. Who knows.. Let God decide about it.. That's all the a Sat that was meant for studying.. Feels more meaningful yet I've placed more pressure to study harder..

There was this volunteer services to distribute food supplies at Bukit Merah near the market.. Expected it to be real quick.. Once again the thought about life and it's importance stuck me again when looking at the old folks.. They live alone and have difficulties moving in their one room flat.. Yet when you hand a bag of rice to them.. You see them smile.. Makes me wonder where are their children.. Would this happen to me as well?? My parents are getting to that "irritating" stage as well.. In addition to the new commitments.. So I really want to spend so much time with them?? Depressing?? Must be the studies..

Had another workshop the following weekend.. Met more people who are intending to start a study group as well.. For next year as least if I clear both papers..

Crunch time came on Thu.. One week prior to the exams.. All the chionging and mugging started to come back..

Finally the day where all the hard work ends.. (if it is considered hard work).. Looks promising.. Praying I'll clear both papers..

PS.. Coffee effect did not wear off till Thu..

Got my long await watch and congratz to Grace on your marriage.. Do read what I wrote ya.. Cheers..

That's life for the past two months.. Still looking forward to better times ahead.. Till then..

Sep 2011

2011-09-30T23:08:00.000+08:00

September 2011..

Haiz.. Why did I take up a new job along with 2 papers?? It means no life!! at least till End of October..

At least the courses and information sessions do seem very useful.. Got to know a few people.. Talk about meeting old faces.. Saw some sec school mates at work.. Doesn't seem so bad..

There's PlayMax too.. Which was quite entertaining.. It does make you feel old when all of them keep calling you "Teacher".. Not that I really bother about it.. It was all good with the exception of a few naughty kids who refuse to listen to instructions.. Other than that it was good to see the kids again.. Hopefully I'll get the chance to meet them again..

Mid-autumn festival at Pacific.. Wanted to catch the performance.. Missed it sadly.. But the study preparations were a little of more importance.. Hope it works out well..

Talk about bad timing.. Had my NS manning during the weekend.. On a Sunday!! A confirmation service.. What made it worse was the study preparation I missed out.. I've been mentioning a lot about study preparation cause it's really quite heavy (times 2).. It was good meeting all the NS guys and catching up.. Felt like a reunion.. Will be looking forward to meeting them again come November..

Opening of Pause.. Congratz on the successful opening of the cafe dude!! All the best.. Nice and interesting place not to mention quiet as well..

CPA Workshop.. The speaker was good.. Felt that I've learnt so much more than I did trying to read all the study material.. Met more people as well.. Bad thing was it was held on a weekday.. Goodbye Sat and Sun.. Looking back it was a good sacrifice.. The F1 race that weekend as well.. Could hear the engines from the building.. Still I'm not really willing to pay for the entrance fees for the race.. Doesn't seem that worth it.. Maybe.. Maybe next year..

I though September was a boring and lost month.. Looking at the things I wrote.. It was actually a rather busy month..

Till the end of the exams!!

Aug 2011

2011-08-30T23:38:00.001+08:00

August has been an interesting month. Especially since it's July was already great.

When we returned from Thailand, I had a bad migraine for the next 2 days. Thought it was some spiritual attack since I had an interview coming up.

Interview was short and brief.. About 15 minutes.. Somehow it wasn't exactly the best of interviews but seemed good enough.. The result was scheduled the following Friday.. They somehow tried to contact me the following Thursday to ask me start work the next Monday.. Thank God for His grace. For putting Him first over the last few months.. I still need His grace for the next 2 months to balance work, studies and social life.. I can do it!! (With His help of course..)

There was the Festival Of Praise this August as well but it didn't seem like an important event.. Though the message of Grace was relevant.. This FOP didn't seem like previous FOPs..

FOP is followed by NDP.. Completely didn't follow anything except for the fireworks.. Thankfully since there were comments the NDP was not that great.. Also found out who cannot drink.. :)

After signing the contract I met up with my uni friends at Chef Daniel Restaurant.. Nice ah?? Ambience was good except that the menu only had 10 items.. In the end went to some Korean BBQ restaurant where the food was not fresh.. Went for ice-cream supper and ordered a 5-flavour ice-cream where the only flavour I can taste was durian.. Not a good day for eating.. Island Creamery anyone??

As I'm starting work soon.. Volunteering with CITY has to end.. Got the kids some gifts.. Cute as they are but not as loveable as the Thai kids.. WIll be seeing them again in Sep for the PlayMax event.. Talking about the kids.. Should be planning for a return trip back to Ban Chang in Dec.. Anyone else is welcomed to join.. :)

Finally starting packing my room.. Big headache.. I'm not done packing my stuff.. Plus the work and studies etc.. GG.. Now thinking whether to defer 1 CPA paper.. Should I since I've started work??

Another thing.. Finally got to vote!! Though it lasted only 15 minutes (had to walk with my mother else it would have ended in 5 minutes).. Again got a fever at weird timings..

Alright.. Sep's going to be even more cramped with events.. Hopefully I can manage..

Jul 2011

2011-07-31T23:38:00.000+08:00

July was so packed with things..

From the start there was Albert's wedding.. Got to meet a few of the KK team.. Good to see them.. And yes.. No chance to upload the pictures yet..

CPA letters.. Was still in the midst of signing up for my CPA and had to get testimonial letter edited.. So much work.. Haiz.. Now I'm left with one more..

The following week was Clara's b'dea.. It was a long day consider there was 12:01 plus games at RJ's house plus a second round of desserts.. Think I was early for service the following day too..

I went for this CITY after school daycare at East Coast Primary.. The kids were.. Some were nice but half were just irritating.. Went a second time the following wednesday and did some arts and craft..

There was dinner with Chris and got to catch up and learn what his church was doing.. This was a few days after we confirm the trip to Ban Chang.. It got up excited for the trip..

That weekend I got hold of my friend's CPA note.. But seriously.. My own notes came when I was in Ban Chang.. So not much use actually.. Lolx..

Then I sold my Hp.. The old one to get a new Hp meant for NS.. Quite nice to use actually.. Nokia phone.. Just that I cant use the older chargers..

The Ban Chang team had it's first (and only) team meeting to sort out logistics and to plan for lessons.. Didn't really reach much conclusion but at least somethings were sorted out..

I had the time to visit my grandma and cousin during a weekday.. Unfortunately my cousin wasn't home and we wasted the trip there..

The next day we brought some old folks from Pacific Healthcare to Marina Barrage to fly kite.. Ended up flying the kite the whole morning rather than looking after the old folks.. Lolx.. The other issue that touched me was 12:01.. Some of the youth gathered and prayed in public.. The last time I remembered doing something like this was nearly 10 years ago when I was still in Poly.. Signs are clear..

Well.. The next day was BC!! Firstly flight to BKK was delayed by 1/2 half and nearly missed linking up with Jowyne.. Next was trying to contact Pastor Anong.. When we did and got to the van.. There were like 5 Kids in the van.. Didn't really know who they were.. Turned out that those kids were the ones we would miss a lot when we left a week later..

We took a de-tour and attended a graduation ceremony for someone by the name of 'Man'.. Turns out he helped us a lot during our lessons.. In the end we reached the hotel past midnight.. Thankfully the next day was a rest day for us to plan.. The day started with breakfast!! (Will upload the pictures when I get it back)..

Fast forward.. 3 schools of full days lesson.. 1 lesson with the Bethlehem kids.. 3 cell groups.. 1 prayer meeting.. 2 planting sessions.. 1 gig.. 1 Sunday service and 1 games day.. Thrown in loads of 'ah roy' food.. Happy faces.. Late nights and lack of sleep.. Our week's stay at Ban Chang is over.. Is one week too short.. YES it is.. To have a good mission trip it should be at least two weeks..

July has ended on a high.. I hope August doesn't come crashing down.. Starting with the interview on Wednesday..

All the best then!!

Jun 2011

2011-06-30T18:02:00.001+08:00

June was a month of activities.. Not much time to complete my other chores.. Now that it's over time to get back to track..

Night Cycling and Prawning was good and fun.. Just that a catch of 14 prawns for 6 people in 3 hours wasn't that good a catch.. This was suppose to be warm-up for my prawning show down which had to be postponed till Nov at least.. Nvm.. More practise the better..

Bowling.. Immediately the day after had bowling.. If only I dont keep spinning the ball I'll get a good score.. But then again.. Where's the fun in it?? Got to know a few nice people there as well..

Batam.. Had a short trip to Batam.. The hotel was nice.. Just that it was new and the facilities not opened.. Lolx.. There was this Memmonite Church.. Not really sure but it sounds.. Interesting..

Picture.It.. Next day.. It was this event.. Didn't really take much pictures but had a short walk around Tiong Bahru Estate.. Could have been better.. I'll consider buying a DSLR.. After getting my new job..

Church Camp.. This was probably one of the more eventful events.. Learning about Daniel and other people..

CPA.. Signed up for by Professional Papers.. 6 in total.. As for working experience.. I'm about 8 months short of the requirement.. Doesn't matter though as I need to clear the Professional Papers first..

Jobs.. There seems to be an opening in the area I'm interested in.. Still praying about it.. I'm sure God provides..

May 2011

2011-05-30T20:11:00.004+08:00

May has been relatively relaxed..

Registered for Church Camp.. Looking forward to it though a number of senior might not be there.. Will be helping in Music and with the kids..

Football in a long while and on turf.. Need more fitness as I'm struggling in games nowadays.. Must be cause no IPPT..

Interview for a new Job recently which allows me to do what I want.. So let's wait and see how..

MBS is probably the most interesting event this month.. Nice view.. New place.. But was too tired to really enjoy the stay.. UCL!! Haiz..

Looking forward to June!!

Apr 2011

2011-04-30T17:39:00.000+08:00

April 2011

The month wasn't full of big events except for a few interviews here and there..

There was this Dive Expo and was considering going for the Divemaster.. In the end decided to dive for leisure since I don't really have the time

May May be a better period.. :)

Mar 2011

2011-03-31T22:24:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.. It seems that I forgot to post the March update..

So what's new this month?? Actually had a department outing after nearly 2 years there.. Partially cause some guys are heading to PNG soon.. I was wondering how the group (half eurasians and half asians) were going to sing K.. Yes KTV.. Taking into account they drank beer which made them drunk (not so say they are sane when not drunk) they were enjoying themselves.. Much more entertaining for me.. Lolx.. There are pictures but best kept within the group.. :)

Then got my lappy (pre-order as it was out of stock from the IT fair).. The old one's killing me with the lag.. That marked another item off my list.. Had the Nano in mind but finally convinced myself the Phone's enough.. what's left is an external batt and to repair my old HDD.. $$$ outflow but for the items inside it..

Played in the Prayer meeting as well.. Got to play more often there as well as my attendance at main before I should start playing in the music ministry.. Good starting ground too.. And ya.. More cables required!!!

Car and Condo still in the long-term plans.. Other items checked.. Career's due a change soon.. Urgently!! Been for some interviews which did not go smoothly but still got hope.. Praying for the way to go.. I know He'll show me the way.. Just soon I pray..

Went for IPPT (to get Silver).. Ended up jogging in the 2.4km cause not enough points.. That's still alright.. I went to play basketball after that.. That made Friday is slow and sluggish day.. Lolx..

Had a few dinners for birthdays (mine and others).. Plus the birthday discounts for the birthday month.. Which adds on to the tiring schedule..

Seems to be fully packed.. April looks more relaxed with so many items on the "To-do-List" completed.. Life looks promising (hopefully)..

Feb 2011

2011-02-27T19:59:00.002+08:00

February.. The time of Chinese New Year and indication that 2011 is well on it's way..

Cny isn't one of my favourite holidays as my cousins are all spread out.. It was still good and a well spent holiday though..

Next big thing was RT.. Yes I went for RT.. and I cleared it at the first attempt.. Done with this year's as well.. Still intending to go for another one to get my money.. anyone for the end of March??

And the dragonboat.. Bad timing.. Couldn't go for both practice and the actual event due to physical reasons..

Also.. I'm really thankful for the last week as many things are going my way for once.. Does God answer prayers?? In His time.. really.. When helplessness sets in and nothing seems possible.. He'll show his faithfulness.. It's still not completed yet so let's see what the following week holds..

*Praying..

Jan 2011

2011-01-31T21:50:00.000+08:00

A new year a new beginning.. Things do look brighter than in 2010 with many things moving forward.. Not at a fast pace but it's moving.. :)

So what happened?? Went to two gyms for trial.. Did learn a few things but definitely not prepared to pay the fees..

Got to meet up with some old friends and made some new ones at some fair.. Hopefully even more in the coming months..

Had RT and Dragonboating.. Not as interesting as I had hoped..

Nothing else that I want to write here anyway.. Till next time.. :)

Dec 2010

2010-12-30T17:26:00.001+08:00

Goodbye 2010.. Hello 2011..

What a month it has been. So many things that happened.

Firstly it's the diving at Bali. Got the Advance Cert and am currently looking to go around nearby places for diving. Oh ya, need the diving camera cover. Got to see things I wanted to see and many more. Bali is nice but Thailand still more attractive to me. Got to do white water rafting which wasn't very exciting. Redang or Langkawi anyone?

Mad rush for pressents especially the last week but thankfully managed to get all in time. Got to meet old friends, movies, dinners. Quite a few things. However, this Christmas did feel quiet compared to previous years.

Either way, 2011 seems to be a better year ahead. :)

Nov 2010

2010-11-30T23:32:00.001+08:00

Another month has pass and we are on the last stretch of the year..

Once again nothing much eventful..

Children's ministry outing.. There was a glimpse of the past when I was kids playing soccer.. All the no formation runs, sliding, getting dirty.. I used to do that and got scolded.. The next generation has arrived.. Time flies and now I'm considered a young adult.. Those days have come and gone.. Scary isn't it when you realise that time flies.. You can't turn back time to un-do any regrets.. But hey.. We can always help the younger ones.. (talking as if I'm some old man dying on my bed).. What make me happy was to see a family that has grown.. Great day!!

Next up was my low-key ICT.. Put on additional fats during that short span of 5 days.. Eat, sleep, eat again.. All the canteen break.. Not to mention supper (Yes, I said supper during ICT).. This time the atmosphere was completely different.. It was like some re-union!! Seriously it was a good time to chill, drink and catch up.. Another good week..

Following week.. Everyone's on seminar plus mid-week holiday.. Another week to chill out..

The last week on Nov seemed so normal.. Work work work.. Until Fri at least.. Dinners plus meeting uncle.. Been a long time since I met any of them.. Not to mention the cute niece.. She's quiet though.. Really had no time to even pack my stuff for Wed.. (I'm doing this while packing)..

Looking forward to a great time to relax and slack.. Hopefully re-align myself and to re-focus on career aims..

Till then..

Oct 2010

2010-10-30T22:33:00.000+08:00

Oct 2010.. Started looking for other jobs.. Went to the jobstreet fair and was totally disappointed and not really worth blogging about.. Shows you how interesting a life I have..

Got to cycle and play badminton for the first time in xx years.. My goodness.. This reminds me of how old I am..

Oya.. Went for some interviews which makes me want to stay where I am.. Yuck..

This really seems like a boring month.. Nov and Dec should be a lot better.. :)

Sep 2010

2010-09-12T22:34:00.002+08:00

An interesting week indeed.. 2 work day week plus leave plus holiday definitely makes it a relax week.. Thankfully I didn't waste much money during this period.. Partially due to the fact that I didn't plan anything much.. :)

That will be different come end of the year :).. Painful to the wallet but it will be worth it.. Other than that.. Think it's time to change the topics on this blog.. Provided anyone reads this..

Responsibilities.. Is it a sign of maturity or is it commitments placed unto you?? To do what you want and chase your dreams is what people will tell you but what about things which you simply cannot ignore?? Easy to chase dreams when you got no responsibilities right?? But are you sure there are no responsibilities or are these people ignoring their responsibilities?? Then again don't everyone have the same type of responsibilities??

Next question.. What do you want in life?? It's still a question I'm yet to finalise but there are general plans.. Do ask me if you want to know..

Till next time..

Aug 2010..

2010-08-29T21:20:00.002+08:00

Look at the date - Aug 29.. It's nearly 2/3 of the year gone.. How time flies.. Students heading into the working world after the high of Graduation..

Nowadays things seem to be heading at bullet speed.. Work and all the planning.. Though not as busy as the guys in the YOG but still occupied with stuff..

At least I got my Phone.. It's definitely a lot more useful than the stupid Smartphone I had previously.. Cuts down the time spent on my PC by nearly half.. But I'm still not used to it.. All the syncing and warranties and plans etc hasn't been that effective in migrating over.. Not to mention the need to purchase a new ICT phone and SIM card (IPhone uses the micro SIM card).. So many small yet tedious things to do..

Then there's that NS manning during the YOG.. Thankfully nothing suicidal happened.. Or you might have seen me at any of the venues beefing security.. But then again.. I wont do too much either..

There's the other NS issue of IPPT.. If you guys didn't know I failed my IPPT by 1 sit-up.. Due to the dragonboat event somewhere in March (Excuses).. Got to take it again in Nov.. Unlikely to screw up like the previous time but it did take up some considerable time sorting it out..

Been playing basketall recently but I'm still far from getting proper shots in.. At least I know it's improving my stamina steadily.. So that helps.. Beats running on the track by myself.. There's more action too.. Like nearly getting into a fight with some rude malay guys who refused to stop playing football on the basketball court.. Police arrived 1 hour after the call.. Well.. More actions ya..

Not only sports but other activities as well.. Had a few friend's birthdays and events held at clubs and recently I think there's another unwanted attention.. This time to "Play" as well.. Why do I get this kind of stuff??

Also quite a few interesting topics the past few weeks.. I'm not on fire recently.. But it does seems the flames are getting fan-ed.. Let's hope it's not a gust of wind..

Looking forward to the IT Fair and some short breaks.. Hopefully I can plan something during those long weekends.. Till then..

And I managed to spend very little this month.. Nearly 1/2 as usual.. Swee..

Aug 2010

2010-08-05T19:43:00.002+08:00

the FOP was great as usual.. like every year.. especially the speaker.. the way he arrived was quite unexpected.. the flight cancelation.. the baggage.. well the message was simple - reconciliation.. also.. my breathing's better.. kinda unexpected healing..

band was more interesting than usual with new back-ups.. it's good to see new blood.. but whether they stay.. is another issue.. it's abt time the younger ones take over else there would be no continuity.. the youngest current playing is clara.. it's not for me to decide..

Training for the following week.. and still deciding on future..

July 2010

2010-07-27T20:23:00.002+08:00

apparently I've not been updating this site.. dying but not dead.. leaving to fight another day.. and.. nvm..

life's not that interesting nowadays.. work and weekend.. that's most of it.. I need some other activities.. other than sports cause I've enough myself..

time to reflect on some resolutions made in Jan this year.. nearly 7 months gone and 5 more to go.. one of the items is to play the bass better.. that has improved but it's still far from where I want to be.. seperate from that.. I'm looking into the possibility of acquiring a semi-electric/acoustic guitar.. why?? no idea.. impulse maybe.. still looking into the aspect of playing for main.. it's been a half hearted dedication though.. for those who know me more would understand why it's half hearted..

next is children's ministry.. yes.. i said children's ministry.. attended the 2 seminar session recently and it seems to be a challenge seriously.. do hope to be able to sit in one of the sessions..

Iphone 4's coming out on Friday and it's abt $600++.. worth it?? maybe not so soon.. wait awhile more to let any defects to sorted out.. I'm not the type to chiong for things and kena all the weird stuff.. maybe in Aug.. (partially cause of money ah).. but it's nice.. tried my colleague's phone and it looks more classy than the toyish looking 3GS.. wait.. that's just the design.. function wise I cant comment since I didn't use the previous ones..

about time to return to proper work.. looking forward to end of this year.. :)

June 2010

2010-06-30T23:21:00.003+08:00

June.. What a Month.. Church Camp.. Youth Camp.. CPA.. Plus other not so significant items..

Got to check up on the CPA status and I am exempted from at least 2 years work experience.. So back to the simple question.. Do I want to stay here or go back to Financial Advisory?? Still deciding and will need to confim by July..

Next up was the Church Camp.. Got to know the younger ones better and from the pictures posted one can tell the fun we had..

As for the Youth Camp.. Didn't get to stay there cause of work but managed to go down in the evenings..

Kinda lazy to write anything now.. So will do so more often.. But not now..

May 2010

2010-05-31T23:33:00.000+08:00

Seriously time flies.. May is over and we are now nearly half way through 2010..

Labour Day.. Well Labour Day wasn't anything great but I did manage to see my Grandma.. Can't see her often.. Sometimes I dont want to see her at all.. Struggling physically.. Shall not continue about this here..

Starhub.. Managed to change the house plan which will save money.. Seriously.. If I blog about such things.. I'm sure you can tell how boring work life gets..

Dinner @ ECP.. Contrary to the above.. Still got to have dinner with a US colleague at ECP.. Paiseh sia.. I as a Singaporean didn't even eat at that restaurant.. Think it's the Red Dot ++.. Well.. It was paid for.. :)

Also met up with a sec sch friend for dinner and chill out at "Liquid Gold".. Yes there.. Same place as where YS is going to work.. Not really a great place but good enough to chill and sing K..

After that night I fell sick due to indigestion.. I still had to play soccer since I asked the younger guys to play.. They were quite good for their age and it was nice playing with them.. Technically and Tactically good..

Another friend's b'dea the following weekend and more last nights.. I seriously cant take so many last nights.. Getting old..

Went for the Gen 12 commission.. Good to see my mission trip friends heading back into the mission field.. Unfortunately for them Thailand was out due to the protests and they had to be separated to join other places.. Thank God they met their support.. All the best and enjoy God's presence working in people's lives..

Vesak Day.. Enjoy the lunch gathering.. Nice place to chill and also the movie and games.. Kinda miss those times when exams ended..

That phase of life is over.. Currently in the woring phase and not exactly settled due to many reasons.. 6 month plan is settled and in the process of being carried out..

Till the end of the month.. I'll enjoy the church camp and all other activities coming up.. :)

Apr 2010

2010-04-30T22:24:00.000+08:00

For april hasn’t been that exciting.. my goodness.. time flies and may is approaching..

Finally visited city harvest.. for the easter service.. the entire layout was impressive.. even the performance with good effects.. however.. i was concerned with the contents.. as usual you guys may say.. there were quite a few inconsistencies which I wont highlight.. but for younger believers they might be stumbled or even mislead.. it was quite evident after speaking with my friend that many of them were not aware whether the events shown in the play were stated in the bible.. I mean the play mixed many different stories and parables together.. anyway it’s important to not cause your brother to stumble..

Oya.. got my glasses for the sunglasses.. yet to use it though.. paid $30 for it.. wootz..

A first is my tax return.. for the amount I earn.. I’m not liable to pay any tax yet anyway.. earn too low.. got the NOA which confirms everything.. done with last year..

Also met up with some old friends.. good to know they are doing well too.. the older you get.. the harder to keep in contact with friends made in the past.. I mean do you really contact primary school friends?? You meet them once in a blue moon.. new friends are hard to come by.. at least ones you want to keep.. life’s has it’s up and down.. it’s an area I’ve got to work on..

The other thing is due to insurance coverage.. I had to take a medical check-up.. one I did not have to take previously.. good since the result was positive.. as in good..

Canon Ixus 50.. the screen broke and got it repaired.. though not by me.. I’m glad that I’ve been able to maintain things for a long time.. maybe cause I treasure some things more than others.. but thank God I didn’t blow up top over it.. then again.. it would have been more beneficial to pay a bit more to get a new camera than to repair the camera.. but since it was the first camera I got myself.. it would have more sentimental memories than to buy a new one..

I hope May will be more interesting.. 

Mar 2010

2010-03-30T23:18:00.000+08:00

Mar has come and gone and yes it has been a busy and hectic and not to mention $$ month..

Firstly.. I've overspent.. Well not to the extend to spent all I have but rather more then I had budgetted.. Budgetted?? Yes I have a budget which I can spend.. Then again.. There was the IT Show.. It isn't an excuse to blindly use a credit card.. Got to monitor the way I use it in a better way..

Back to the entry.. Got this Citi SMRT Card which is really convenient.. Got my new Cam and a printer which is fast and shiok to use.. especially since it is wireless.. Had been cam-whoring with the effects of that cam.. Will upload the pictures when I have the time..

Something new I tried was Dragonboating.. It's quite fun and not that tiring actually.. Good part was that I got to meet new people.. Will be looking to participant in it more regularly.. I do like sea-sports nowadays..

Another thing which I have been procastinating is my Resume.. Did only one but there are others I am looking into..

Next item is the IPPT.. Well.. I could have gotten a silver.. But due to unforeseen circumstances and to my surprise as well as many.. I failed my sit-ups by 1.. Yes.. By 1.. Did try to do the partial failure the next day.. It did not prove successful thou.. I couldn't even do half the number I did during the test.. Well.. Currently pending whether the window for partial failure can be extended..

After that was my Birthday.. It happened at Newton Circus.. Yes.. Celebrated before that but ended going there for supper.. The actually day was spent quietly and with family..

There's a lot more but I'd rather not put it up here.. Till next month..

Feb 2010

2010-02-28T17:21:00.002+08:00

CNY was the main event this month.. Good time?? or Bad times?? Depends on the individual I guess..

So I had set out to pack my room by filing my documents.. So got the files.. And that's about it.. So much about filing..

I had a swollen left hand in the 2nd week and had to see the doc.. Best part was that I went to see him at 4 plus and he was close.. Joker.. Next is the ENT visit.. Nothing much here.. Except I was told that I could return to get a letter if I kept feeling uncomfortable.. Maybe I will..

Also made a pair of transition glasses.. Since most of my specs are nearly 3 years old.. Time to buy new things.. Lunch with Grandma.. My family decided to have lunch instead to escape the mad rush with everyone..

Went back to work on Wed and work wasn't going ahead as many were away.. So decided to take my HDD to Sim Lim for repairs.. That was after lunch at Chinatown.. Next time I should not go down by myself.. Then again.. I dont really find Sim Lim a good place to get stuff.. Not for warranty at least.. In the end I got paranoid over whether the HHD was mine.. So after some investigation.. Found out that the power supply or the reader is down and the only way to recover is to send it to the cleanroom.. 2k!!.. maybe in a year or 2..

Next up was IPPT.. Ironic thing was that I reach at near 6 and it took me awhile just to keep my stuff into the locker.. By then IPPT had stopped.. So I was the last guy to take the stationary test.. Got 3 3 3 4 and I could get an incentive if I finished 2.4km around 12 mins.. But then.. I didn't run as there was no motivation and not possible to clear it in time.. On the way out.. I met a poly friend and had a good time catching up with him and finding out how the others are doing.. 6 years since Grad..

Had lunch with one of my cousins yesterday and saw my cute niece.. She the typical hyperactive kid.. Feeling so old all of a sudden.. After that I finally collected my grad pictures.. Yes.. After 1/2 a year..

Got to discuss the diving trips.. Especially AOW.. So hopefully in Apr can go for it.. Need the cam by next month.. Wootz..

The last week of Feb was the most happening.. Well.. I hope Mar would be just as interesting.. Also.. New objectives required..

There's nothing much other than what has happened.. Maybe I'll need to update this blog with more thoughts instead..

Till next time..

Jan 2010

2010-01-31T23:37:00.000+08:00

New year new things.. But same old crap.. What a way to start off this entry.. Well.. I dont really have much complains.. Just that work is still the same.. Fill with people who dont use brains.. Other than that.. Things seem a lot easier and less stress.. Maybe cause I've been neglecting some personal stuff.. The list is growing.. Cant procastinate anymore!!

Now the highlights for Jan:-

ENT specialist says I need surgery.. Retard MO says block nose.. My goodness.. I question his ability and whether he is competent..

Dinners and birthdays here and there.. Had nice celebrations as well.. Looking at the younger ones celebrate makes me feel old.. Lucky there was a Youth Adult's gathering..

CNY's coming and Valentine's Day.. Why does the dates fall as close?? Haiz..

Things I need to settle:-

1) Resume
2) Specs
3) IT stuff
4) many more things
5) a life..

(Just complaining..)

Now you know why I mentioned point 5.. That's it.. For now..

Dec 09

2009-12-28T12:56:00.002+08:00

Ah.. Finally some time to blog about the month before it ends.. To carry on from where I had previously end off..

ICT Manning.. Crap stuff.. Put us on alert for no apparent reason.. In the end no call up.. Waste my time stuffing my stuff into the bag.. Now I have to clean everythings again..

Phuket trip.. Here's where I ended off previously.. In the morning I woke up at left at 8 plus.. Faked by the others and ended up taking cab down to the airport.. I think the budget airlines are really budget.. Security's quite low.. Slept on the plane there.. Only an hour but it's good rest.. So.. Landed and off to the hotel.. No real plans were made as to what we were going to do.. Except snorkelling.. Go-karting.. Watching Simon Cabarat.. Chatting and going to the pubs.. It's quite a lively place actually.. Just that it's loaded with Eurasians.. Not many Asian people except the locals.. After the first day I realised I looked Thai.. Somehow I resemble some famous Thai actor as well as the dark tan I had.. Many things that will be in memory and not stated here due to it's content.. Lolx.. The accomodation as well.. Thankful that I got a hotel at 25% of it's original rate.. Nice hotel but quite far from the beach.. Overall I enjoyed that trip except for a few minor hiccups here and there..

Next was the hell week.. Ok not that bad but I had to do a few OTs just to catch up on things as well as my Manager going to New Zealand.. He's still there by the way.. Haiz.. Relac guy.. When will it be my turn.. The week ended off with a dept X'mas party.. Got the chance to mingle with the other perm staffs.. I haven't had the chance to do so since I joined the company.. Dec's a good time to join a company as everyone is relaxed and just want to go away on holidays so the mood's relaxed.. And my goodness.. The house was nice with a mini-swimming pool as well as nice food.. Now what happened to the da-pao food??

Now here's the panic part.. Prez!! Yes one week before and I haven't got anything yet.. So over the next few days I was on a shopping frenzy.. Prob is that I saw many things but I didn't get it.. I think the most interesting one was on 23 Dec with ****.. For certain reasons not to be told to the public.. Thankfully managed to clear most of the stuff with ****.. Thanks ya!! And apologise for making you wait.. The company lunch took up too much time..

X'mas eve.. Was suppose to have lunch again.. Lucky managed to skip it and do my work.. Got to speak to other colleagues as well and understand the org chart here in SG.. In the afternoon started to wrap prez.. I know I'm kinda last min but still managed to finish all before heading to church for our church gifts.. Artsy Fartsy stuff again.. We going to do the same next year?? Lolx.. Had service and dinner.. I think it was a record crowd that night.. Even the food wasn't enough.. Later that evening went down to Clarke Quay for photo session and drinks.. Stayed till X'mas and went home.. I was so tired that I fell asleep on the bus 15 min bus ride home.. Packed and got ready for the next day..

X'mas.. Yes.. That day of the year.. Was slightly late and maybe God's plan that I met Desmond below.. Went up with him for the service.. It's been over 2-3 years that he's finally come for the church service.. Perseverence works.. Once services ended.. The frenzy of gift exchanges begins.. Yes the chaos of finding the people and their gifts.. The mess of keeping the gifts received with the ones you're suppose to give.. The photo sessions.. Looking back at the pictures 2-3 years back.. It only seems like yesterday we were at this frenzy stage.. For once we didn't hang around doing nothing until 1-2pm.. Went down to Bukit Timah for carolling then lunch.. By that time.. Everyone was shagged out!! No choice but to head home to rest.. Well.. X'mas didn't end there.. Dropped by Matt's house.. You know what goes on there.. :)

Next morning went to visit my grandma.. And yes!! She recognised me.. Think it's the specs and hair.. She keeps thinking I'm still in NS.. Collected my grad pictures for viewing and then home.. What else.. How to carry on without the proper rest sia..

Sunday.. What a week.. Think everyone's tired by then.. X'mas never fails to be full of surprises.. And I did have mine.. :).. Though there are some doubts left to be answered.. But God will reveal them in time.. Meanwhile it's been a great X'mas..

Currently resting and clearing up stuff for this week and prep for next year.. 2010.. What lies ahead??

Nov 09

2009-12-08T01:43:00.003+08:00

Nov flew by so quickly that I didn't notice it..

Let's see what happened..

Van's 21st B'dea.. Been a while since I've met the KK team.. Not all went but it was great to meet them.. Got to catch up.. Actually not much diff from where we left off.. Lolx..

ENT.. Had the 2nd appointment.. I thought it would have been some test.. Ended up being treated by a crap doctor.. No wonder everyone else opted for "private".. There were so many loose ends that it took me nearly a week to settle everything.. And my medical review is on the 30 Dec.. Likely to be no more IPPT anymore.. Means no money too..

Grad Pictures.. Finally had the time to take my grad pictures.. Troublesome though.. My mom made such a big fuss just to dress up.. And the scheduled time to take the picture was 5pm.. At 4pm my parents wanted to leave house.. So early?? In the end we let at 4.40pm and was on time.. Somehow I had problems with smiling with my teeth.. I dont take pictures with my mouth open if you noticed.. Just the upward curve of the lips.. Unless I'm really laughing then you are able to see my teeth.. It felt stupid too.. Well.. It's once in a life time that I grad..

Jen's Wedding.. Held at SAFRA Yishun.. Interesting place as well.. I felt that it wasn't well hosted by the hosts.. Even the music montage screwed up.. But it's good to meet up with my Uni friends..

Sitex.. Was expecting to see nice stuff.. And I dont mean girls.. There wasn't anything I expected to find.. Did get load of brochures though.. Can compare prices and wait till March to get something new.. Lappy maybe.. Depends on my needs..

Combined service.. The IGS was good.. Seeing more than a thousand people worshipping was great.. Though it wasn't some rock concert as there were senior citizens.. Something new was the way the communion was held.. With all the singing of the words.. As for the 2nd service.. I felt that I didn't need to attend.. Nearly fell asleep too.. Was quite disappointed..

Looks like Nov wasn't that slow.. As for Dec.. Nothing big too.. Trips and a few parties..

Some issues have been pressing on me too.. These things dont seem to go away.. Haiz.. Need more time to think about it.. But first.. To sleep then fly away.. :)

Oct (part 2)

2009-11-02T23:28:00.002+08:00

Second half of October..

First up was Caleb's & Jen's wedding.. As you guys can see in Facebook.. Fun throughout.. :)

Next up was the trip to ENT.. Had some nasal issue which means I have problems with my breathing.. Not to my surprise anyway.. Next appointment is on 19 Nov 09..

Also.. Meeting and going out with friends.. Seems so busy these weeks..

And and.. After dont know how many weeks.. I finally ran.. Timing's still the same thou..

I'm just lazy to type out the events now.. Next time then..

Oct 09..

2009-10-14T20:02:00.003+08:00

It's mid-Oct and I think I ought to blog slightly more since things seems to be quite interesting..

The beginning was still spent in ICT.. Got to meet my men (ok guys).. They're quite an interesting bunch.. Full of crap which makes me laugh at them often..

Sat got burnt due to life firing.. And I had to fire 2 charges because I'm one of the few Engineer trained commanders around.. Actually not hard to do.. But the blast was cool.. And funny to see my OC all crutched up against the wall like a baby when the rest of us were still chatting.. So we were early back to camp at around 2pm but had to wait until the Infantry guys came back.. So.. We did Bunk Maintenance..

The Engineers are crap.. Can you image which the Infantry and building their prowls at 4am or 4pm and here comes the Engineers laughing while carrying pickets and concentina wires?? I would shoot them.. But ya.. That's us.. Being Engineers.. We are busy with loads of stores and we had to travel to and fro from camp.. We did bunk maintenance as well.. :) Can look for some pictures in Facebook..

Somehow we seemed to do things fast and usually doing bunk maintenance.. To our surprise we were actually considered good and were a few points away from Rencon 1.. Due to external issues like trainers mis-communicating.. Well.. To us it doesn't matter.. We're just having fun including all the nights-out.. :)

The screwed up part was on Fri when we were delayed from out-processing because of a lost signal battery.. Aren't we suppose to be 3G?? Went out near 7pm..

Next day.. I finally got my temp license (after 3 weeks).. Then reach the mobcentre at 2pm.. Had I relax session with the guys before heading for dinner..

Dinner at Maxwell and Drinks at this nice and out-of-the-way place called "Once upon a Milkshake" (Posted that picture on my Facebook)..

Sunday caught "Funny People" which wasn't that great.. And went onboard Doulos on Monday.. So far quite good..

Maybe the second half would be greater.. Jen & Caleb's wedding.. ENT.. Colouring Hair?? So many thing on my To-Do-List..

Sep 09

2009-09-30T19:15:00.003+08:00

Sep doesn't seem like an interesting month.. ICT for a start.. Got Driving Test..

The first eventful thing that happened was dinner with Uni friends.. At Ashtons.. They took an hour to serve our food.. It was the after dinner that was exciting.. Met Jen and Marie.. and there was this Chevolet (bubble bee) showroom.. Chio car!! Too bad I didn't take a picture of it..

Come to think of it.. I'm yet to take my Grad pictures.. Soon I hope..

There the Comet.. Which wasn't that interesting.. I'm yet to go through the deals and the latest updates in the IT world..

Zulia's b'dea.. Nice place and a good time of Mahjong-ing.. Got to learn something new..

In prep for the ICT I got a haircut which I think is too short and free repair and cleaning of my specs.. All 3 of them.. Wootz..

Here's the most eventful weekend.. Sat 19 Sep - Driving Test.. I scheduled a class just before my test.. It turned out to be a good move as the warm up was basically a drive round and I felt was not sufficient as "warm-up".. After the warm-up we just waited in the waiting room for the previous batch of testees to finish their test.. From the conversations it seemed that not many passed.. So it was my turn.. Got the Tester Michael Yap.. So the test started and test route 10.. From the beginning it was alright.. Until I reached the first test - Parallel parking.. I stopped at the stop line and then went towards the Vertical parking.. Tester jam break and said behind Parallel parking.. "Damn I'm screwed!!".. Apologised and went ahead.. Cleared.. Vertical Next and cleared.. Slope next.. Lucky did not roll back which I do often cause I anyhow do during lessons.. Then S course.. Directional change and Crank Course.. So far so good no IFs.. So out to the road.. The traffic was light and good for test.. U-turn no issue.. Actually everything.. Except the Zebra crossing.. Twice.. First I was too fast and didn't stop before the pedestrian cross.. Could have been an IF.. During the last stretch back was a nightmare.. Firstly a right turning vehicle did not signal and turned into me when I as about to move out into the main road.. Then the second zebra-crossing.. This bugger was walking on the opposite side of the road towards the zebra crossing.. When he was 2m away he stepped up unto the pavement.. Then he walk to the crossing and crossed.. By that time I was on the Zebra-crossing and was slowing down.. Lucky I didn't and the tester considered it as abrupt slowing down.. Second near IF.. By that time I thought I've failed so I did not bother and anyhow drive back to BBDC.. and I didn't signal before turning it.. Gone right?? Well back in the waiting room I spoke to a fellow testee and it seemed we didn't do too well.. The person in front of me took the test 6 times and he finally passed.. "My goodness!! I'm dead".. So in the tester Michael Yap walked in.. I had 4 points in the circuit for lack of engine power up the slope (WTH!!) and sharp turning (Huh?? since when??).. Then the test route.. Apparently the other 12 points were at the junction above.. Abrupt stopping and causing others to slow down (Erm.. ok..).. After talking to much he ended by saying "so many things to note.. But you still passed.. (Shock!!) Go to the TP to make your temp license and watch the video (I didn't hear this part due to the shock above).. The best part was I was not penalised for not signaling when returning to BBDC.. Two time to deduct any points.. "Whoa!! I cleared!! With so many near mistakes and IFs.." Went to have lunch at LDF for the last time.. All the emo pictures.. :).. Enough drama for one day.. And I couldn't make the temp license as TP closed.. Zzz..

Back home.. Spoke to my mother about the test and tester.. Turned out that guy was in TLBC with my mother.. Surprised surprised.. At that point of time both of us didn't know that.. So no foul play involved.. :)

Sunday was normal with lunch and preparation for the Anglican Centenial Celebrations.. Watch Gamer with Shing and two others (Who was it?? Simon and Brian??) Then down to Breko and the Man derby.. Another drama.. As you guys know the game started with a goal in the second minute and non-stop again up till the 96th minute.. What a weekend!!

21 Sep.. All hyped up for the soccer tournament.. and in our orange outfits (outstanding sia!!).. To cut the story short.. Guys lost all 3 games while the girls did slightly better by winning 2 games (out of I dont know how many).. A good time of fellowship between the youths..

What other things can one ask for from a long weekend??

ICT?? Yeah.. Defending our land.. Basically the commanders phase was just sleeping and more sleeping with theory here and there.. That sat I wanted to change the EZ-link card and make the temp license but in the end slept the whole morning in camp.. Had dinner with a few guys on Sat but I dont remember who..

Even had dinner and Ice-cream with Simon, RJ, Mag and Mich.. Taxi driver sent Simon to his camp then to mine.. Wow..

That's Sept 09.. Seems quite eventful suddenly.. Lolx..

Aug 09

2009-08-31T23:33:00.000+08:00

Aug is definitely one of the most exciting months in recent times..

Aug started off with the FOP.. Though I can't remember who was playing but I do remember the sermon.. Basically it's not what we do as Christians but who we are and who we worship.. Those diocese practices are just rituals.. I mean despite all the different denominations.. It's still the same God.. Now and forever (and ever and ever..) What's more important is the one we worship.. And a reminded that Planetshakers will be here next year.. :)

Next up Dave went over to Thailand for 2 months.. Shoik!! I still like the place and the people very much and definitely their love and enthusiasm for God.. Ended up he was rushing for his flight and we did not spend enough time to wish him all the best.. But hey.. Everyone's praying for him.. :) It was too late for me to go meet my lower sec friends.. It's all the way back to town!! So instead went for Hary's 21st.. Got a nice pair of shades of Hary.. How much?? $500?? :)

NDP was next.. Somehow Ice-skating got pushed back due to unforeseen circumstances (lack of response).. Well.. NDP.. What's new?? Other than the pledge taking at 8:22pm..

Next on the list was to collect the gown for my graduation.. The place was very badly described that I thought it was in Serangoon.. Serangoon Broadway in Potong Pasir?? Rite.. And a new pair of Oakley shades.. The current design I had was out of stock and I got a new design for the same price!! Weee.. I did it during lunchtime on Friday and it took me close to 2 hours to get from Harbourfront to Redhill.. A waste of time but it was Friday.. So no issue.. :) Also committed to go for the open water.. Felt relucant but since I've paid.. Just make the most of it.. :)

Ice-skating was next.. Not that interesting since only 5 of us turned up and I was concerned of not injuring myself with the diving on the following weekend.. Still twisted my right thumb in the end.. It's still pain till today..

Ah.. The practical diving in the swimming pool @ Outram Sec.. Familiar place?? By right I'm suppose to go for the theory first before the practical.. So in the end I was completely new to everything.. I was initially worried about swimming 200m and treading water for 10 mins.. What if I managed to fail it?? (Pessimistic I know) In the end I swam breaststroke.. A swimming style that I'm not really used to.. (More used to freestyle) So cleared that part.. Next was the regulator and mask.. Not used to it sia.. Then again I usually use my mouth to breath more.. So the practices began.. Everything was fine.. Just that removing the mask under water was the most irritating.. You'll know why when you do it.. Got a sunburn.. In the pool!! And the German guys were so enthu that it got irritating.. Mainly cause they could not understand English properly..

After that was the band rededication thing.. Which is more like a meeting and sharing actually.. I'm still looking more towards the bass rather than acoustics.. More so as Nick and Dave get more involved in main..

The following week beginning 17th I went for diving theory.. which was easier since I went for the practical the weekend before.. The new things being the Nitrogen part..

UP.. Couldn't catch the movie with Simon and the rest as I had to pack and get rest for the diving trip.. In the end I still didn't get enough rest.. Same old story..

Friday and the fun begins!! Was at work and stoning around as usual until 5.. Went down to MS for the pick up and to my surprise there were 37 people heading to Tioman.. So we departed to Mersing Jetty then on the boat to Tioman.. Everyone was sleeping everywhere.. Even on the top on the boat.. Couldn't get a good rest.. But then again.. I'm kinda used to it.. We reached at about 2am.. Got our rooms and rested until 7am.. Luckily there were only 3 people in my room.. One Norwegian who had dived for 3 consecutive weeks and 2 SG.. Actually I'm quite disappointed with the accommodations.. Simply lousy is all I can say.. Even the condition of the boat as well.. According to a friend who went the following week.. The conditions are not that bad.. Unlucky maybe..

The dive began with a shore descend.. Meaning we went in by the shore.. Sadly someone had a phobia of going to the sea bed which is about 6m deep.. Actually it's kinda scary.. But after awhile you'll get used to it.. Stay down and did some drills which went smoothly.. The second dive was training as well.. After lunch we got to do some open water dives with the rest of the leisure divers.. We got to dive around some small island but I had some bouancy problem and could not keep near the bottom.. Dinner was BBQ and a whole load of crap from the instructors and a written test.. Oh and I got to see Man Utd play Wigan.. Score was at 3-0 when I went off.. :) The next day dive started at 7am.. We had to start early due to tide issues when returning back to Mersing.. This time got the bouancy issue settled and started to enjoy the dives.. Got to see this cuttlefish which I originally thought was a shellfish.. Overall I got to see turtles cuttlefish and clams which were bigger than me upper body.. No pearls sadly.. Things ended and we returned to SG.. Still thinking of doing advance after the moonson season.. Diving cool and cold as well!!

Things didn't end here.. We met up for drink at one of the diver's flower shop on wed night and ended up going to Zouk.. Crazy.. Yeah.. But it was worth it.. Got to meet so many more divers.. Anyway it was a birthday celebration for Julia.. Why crazy?? Cause my graduation was at 8am the next day.. The speech by dont know who was so long that I did not bother to listen and just slept.. Looking through the ceremony booklet I happened to see the name "Tan Chaw Shing".. Though it was such a coincident that someone had the same name as Shing.. Realised it was him and dropped him a sms.. He replied saying he didn't bother to go for the ceremony.. Joker.. Later in the day got to drive the Auto-car.. Easy and not much brains required..

Things got back to normal that weekend and I'm encouraged that there's initiative in TAG.. Aren't I suppose to be stepping out?? And before the meeting I was taking pictures with my Grandma in my grad gown.. She looks so happy with it.. Thinking of her makes me think about life and what to place priority in.. I'm definitely not a person who will place work as a high priority.. Money and status are not important to me.. What's important is my family.. Anyway for those of you guys who know where I've worked at before.. Those companies are God-given and I can say that He does provide when you place things in the correct priority..

A belated birthday for Ilango held on Monday.. :)

A super busy August!! And looking forward to Diving again in Feb.. ($$ issue and monsoon season) Pulau Aur anyone??

Sept doesn't look that interesting with only my driving test as the biggest highlight.. Time to get back my rest.. :)

So many things being repeated..

2009-08-03T23:08:00.003+08:00

I just sang "This is the day" yesterday and I read it in QT today.. Be glad in all things..

Also the friendship of Jonathan and David.. Remember Mark Conner's Illustration of the Holy Spirit.. "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you." Matt 7:7

Oh and thank's for reminding me of having a meaningful life.. I was unhappy because I could and can have a more meaningful life than the one I have now.. Just have to ask that's all..

July 2009

2009-07-31T22:00:00.001+08:00

July didn't start off as high as it ended, not that I'm complaining.. Getting more settled and looking forward to graduation!! Lolx.. August going to be a great month..

First weekend of July had a farewell BBQ for Tom.. Had some fireworks and a fly pass to accompany the great ambience.. I remembered that I was playing chess somewhere along that time of preparation..

Next day football at ECP.. There's this nice shot of me taking a shot at goal.. Didn't score though.. And that Swedenish kids are good in football considering their age.. Looking forward to playing with "Larsson" again.. As well as our no.7..

Next thing was celebrating MM's birthday.. Good to see her smiling especially since she had a tough week.. After that was the best.. Woke up on Sunday with a badly swollen part on my leg.. Let it be known as the ankle (it's above the ankle fyi).. Completely could move and ended up staying at home the whole day.. I even burst the ice-pack.. All the blue gel was on my leg.. Nothing disgusting about it just that I didn't realise it until the cushion was smerged with it.. Saw the doc the next day when I could move.. Then contributed to me not running for nearly the whole month of July.. Freak injury.. Zzz..

Following Sat got to drive in the simulator.. The program is pure suicidal.. Everything just wants to run into you and the best part was that I was the only student around and therefore I had a lot of time in the simulator..

Got to book my practical test date.. Timing's to my liking but not the date; 19 Sept.. TP releases the test dates at weird timings, seriously no QC, then again what do you expect??

18 July, I was walking back home and saw this old woman struggling to walk to flight of stairs.. Firstly I'm think why in the world is she trying to walk up there ALONE.. Somehow I just asked her where she wanted to go.. Decided to walk her around to a less steep slope but after few steps.. She said she wanted to use the toilet so we turned around and it was a good 100-150m to the nearest restaurant.. Since I could walk and had the time I helped her along.. The irritating part is that she kept stopping every 3-4 steps said "Si bei Tia" (very pain refering to her leg) and putting her hand into her pocket to check if her things were still there.. I'm standing there thinking; instead of complaining that it's pain, hurry up and walk to sit down la.. If that's not bad enough, I knew my facial expression was "sian".. But what troubled me was how other people were looking at me.. "What is this boy doing to his grandmother" is the look I get from other people.. Pissed off as I was I just brought her to the restaurant and left saying I had to rush.. She was trying to grab my hand and ask me to bring her in.. I left thinking: who does she think she is?? I offered to help her yet she's asking me to do so much..

In the following days I read in ODB about doing things in a different way; cheerfully.. What if the person bugs you and asks for a yard when you only have an inch?? Frustrating it may be, just do what you can.. I did what I could and left..
Sets me thinking whether it's worth helping others when they take you for granted..
Even the Samaritian did the simplest of things; he just brought the injured fellow into the inn paid and left.. Now.. Why did God even tell me to help her?? Putting Love into actions maybe(ODB July 30)..

Another one is how to serve God when one cant forgive his family.. Details another time..

Discernment.. Is something I feel is lacking among many around me.. Not that I'm super discerning myself.. Just irritated when things are not looked into properly.. I usually not bother telling if the other party keeps insisting they are right..

Jonathan and David.. Is another issue that's been repeated a few times.. Like my nick says; Koinonia.. Echo-ed by John Bevere or some speaker recently..

Question: Where does everything begin??
Answer: From your heart..

That's just a few of the QT that's been speaking out.. Obedience.. Choices.. Freedom.. Doing things happily and out of the heart.. Offering a helping hand..

One issue pestering me is how to transfer support in the most efficient way..

Last thing.. Who likes interesting sports like skiing, diving, canoe-ing, kayaking etc.. I know most of them are water sports.. What about sky-diving?? Driving is ging t be off my list soon.. Considering what's next.. Any suggestions??

June

2009-06-30T23:19:00.000+08:00

June's quite an interesting month.. Had many things going on.. Had church camp which was good and it really spoke to me.. Got a new HP.. Met sec school friends.. Others not so significant..

I wasn't expecting to go for Church Camp but in the end I decided to go since so many were going.. Didn't fail my expectations.. Had loads of fun from the pictures taken by everyone.. The "high" lasted till the end of June I feel.. Got to meet up with a few people to chat and know better.. Partially due to Thomas leaving for Aust to further studies..

I got an Onmia.. Finally.. Due to my cureent HP dying on me.. What irritated me the most was that JET came out the next day!! Argh.. I'll just change after half a year than.. Provided I bother to by then.. So far the HP's good.. Cause I haven't tried using much of it yet..

Also got to meet my upper sec guys.. Good meet up.. Only about 10 people only but had good chats with most of them.. Next will be meeting up with lower sec guys.. God's ansering my prayers one by one.. Will be waiting for the more important ones soon.. :)

I had to cancel a diving trip due to bad cashflow.. For everyone.. So it's been postponed till Aug.. At least I should be going Thailand.. Hopefully.. Been quite busy at work.. The project's ending but I'm yet to search for a long-term job.. Thankfully I'm got a contract extension.. Best part is that my manager asked me how much longer do I want to stay.. Still can get an option.. Lolx.. God-given indeed..

July should be quite interesting I guess.. Shall see.. Till then I hope other prayers get answered along the way.. Till then..

May..

2009-05-31T23:40:00.000+08:00

A short look back into the back the onth of May..

The month seemed to fly by.. nothing much during this time.. work.. holiday.. dinners..

Had a few dinner as well.. catching up with a few pple..

Met up with SIM school mates.. everyone's inding proper jobs and looking forward to their CPA qualification..

To Amy.. pretty girl there.. first month.. the facilities around ur house is just as nice.. i would go to the track to run everyday la..

Also.. june came down for a weekend visit to singapore.. nice to meet her after a long time..

house warming of matt's new house.. his father's if you want to be exact.. nice scenery as well.. greenery all the way till tampines..

and barca lost.. at least man utd lost to a respectable team..

been having driving lesson in the day.. quite different from night classes.. visibility is clearer.. however too many pple.. i think i scare a lot of instructors with the way i drive.. then again.. i'm learning and they have the responsibility to teach me.. rite?? so far it's been fine..

lastly would be this global prayer thing.. made a deal with God there.. we shall see if he does incredible things ya.. by the end of the month.. that's all i shall say for now..

relax week ahead.. mgr's gone overseas.. followed by church camp.. looking forward instead of back..

be back next month.. then again.. who even comes here??

April 09

2009-04-30T01:15:00.000+08:00

April hasn't been that eventful for me. A certain event did occur which still troubles me.

To someone (You should know who you are):

I said what I said because I was pissed off with ur attitude. And I feel that I've wasted my breath since you dont bother to listen to me. Am I to be blame for you not learning? Since you say I'm someone you trust, how come you don't listen to any advice I tell you? Always giving excuses and standing firm on your values. I'm tired of it. Seriously, if you don't bother, then why should I? I'm not as patient and free as other people to listen to you. I've said enough and whether you listen is all up to you.

Regarding what happened, here are the points:-
Point 1: I dont care where the venue is. If you dont take care of things in a safe place, you are likely not to take care out of things outside. Just look at the things you lost after that incident. Action speaks louder than words.

Point 2: If you are not happy then leave your un-happiness with you, don't go around showing it and make it like it's someone else fault. I'm a lot more pissed at you for behaving this way. And don't come and get someone to reprimand me when he did not get the whole event. It's one-side and noobish to not get the whole story.

Point 3: Seriously I will want to know what's your learning method. If I tell you in the face, you can't get it. Holding it for you, you also don't get it. Then how? Still like to call others 'stupid'? Ironic isn't it. Who ought to be called 'stupid'? (Note that I've not called you 'stupid' before) Please mind your words and language in future. You can't go far with your current language and mentality.

Point 4: I want to know how long it takes for you to realise that you had left ur things behind. Sometimes I have to say or hint to you before you realise it. Situation awareness. You lack that.

Point 5: Be responsible for yourself and not take responsibility for others. You have a helpful nature. BUT you are over exploited. If you are happy to be then so be it. I've told you multiple times regarding this issue. So don't cry over spilt milk when it happens again. (I'm refering to the situation a compare this with. Whereas I've got reasons for doing so.)

Note that I don't bother about what others say about me and the way I do things since they themselves dont spend that much time with you as I've have and know you. For those who still persist to give their unwanted views, then I advise you to spend time with this person before you open your gap. Your view are useless and considered as noise unless you are one of those who know this person better than I do. (so far I only consider one person's view who matters.)

Other than the above, I'm still planning many other events. Need a fresh view in life, it's getting boring. Someone commented that my life isn't boring but rather complicated. My reply - complicated? Nothing's happening. One thing's for sure, I've got to move on - things are getting stagnant and it's not good to remain comfortable for long.

March 09

2009-03-31T23:17:00.000+08:00

I had a lot of things to do in march.. looking back at the schedule it seems a busy month for me..

Finally TAG is out in march.. one month later than expected.. but still out.. now for the next issue.. still behind schedule..

NIE application.. somehow the application is not going so well.. haven’t heard from them.. so I made another application.. still waiting.. shall see how..

Cards.. I was comtemplating whether to sign up for a credit card.. in the end decided that it was not appropriate and wait till I am stable financially..

Another reason is cause of insurance coverage.. it would be cheaper to get before my birthday than after for the same type of coverage.. thought abt it and decided to take up some.. less $$ to spend now..

Hard disk.. finally got a replacement.. feel safer now.. however.. I’m still waiting on someone to check the status of the previous HDD.. nearly $200 wasted.. sad..

Prawning.. 2 prawns for 2 hours.. kinda sad.. but had fun at least.. think this could be a hobby in future.. after I get a car.. the place is super far in.. punggol.. and it rained.. heavily.. and we were next to the sea.. demoralizing the people like chloe manage to catch like 3 in 10 mins.. I was very tempted to grab one prawn when it was on the surface.. maybe I should have done so.. anyway the first prawn I caught.. I think I strangled it to death.. it wasn’t moving after I put it into the net.. another weekend perhaps to do better..

After that was the dreaded IPPT.. went to maju camp after work.. and I was waiting for some sort of normal briefing.. so I did warm ups instead.. after awhile it felt weird and so I did pull-ups first.. well cause if I fail that then I wont bother to push for the rest of the stations.. the electronic board stopped at 4 when I did 5.. panicking.. I did enough to get 6 on the board.. the last being a last ditch attempt to touch the bar.. phew.. anyway after amending the score.. I had 7 pull-ups.. previously I managed to do 5.. cool.. so after completing all the stations I check if I could get an incentive pass.. and realized I had to run 11.40 to get the $100.. so to get the 1 more point.. I queued up for the SBJ for half an hour.. just to jump 1 more cm to get 3 points.. then 2.4km run required 12.20.. to cut it short.. I run 12.00 and wondered y I had to run so fast for.. yup.. passed and got the “free” money.. also I just received a sms saying well done u cleared ur ippt.. zzz.. like who cares abt that from mindef.. my next window is open.. that same evening simon happened to have a nights out and got to meet up with him for supper.. before I had my dinner.. what a pleasant surprise.. one resolution down.. many more to go..

I also renewed my SAFRA card.. which means I’m going swimming at Mt
Faber every wed.. starting from.. soon.. not sure abt going sentosa thou.. would like to go every fortnight.. plus running.. yet to check if I can use the gym from my company.. 6 packs by dec? hopefully.. first to rid of the big bulk..

Went down to bbdc to get my PDL license.. was such a long wait.. and best part was when I took the eyesight test.. I did not see the score board and was anyhow whacking the direction the letter was.. and the retard did not direct me to the board as well.. I noticed that many others did not notice the score board as well.. then there was this china guy who was making a big fuss on things.. some license conversion thingy.. everyone was listening to him repeat the same line over and over again.. I also had my first driving lesson.. and I though I was quite slow.. looking around some others were already moving front and back while my instructor was introducing me the parts of the car.. he even commented my theory was advance.. I asked abt the biting point when he did not introduce the clutch yet.. finally I got to drive around the circuit and was quite fun.. thou I kept forgetting some stuff.. like the hand-over-hand steering.. I kept using one hand.. and I kept accelerating very hard.. nice instructor.. and I noticed that I didn’t really hear what he was trying to say to me.. did right turns and shifting to second gear.. lets see how fun the next lesson will be.. now to book the lessons.. lolx.. so far I only book 3 lessons in june..

Didn’t really have a great birthday itself but enjoyed the whole weekend.. had dinner with family.. supper with friends.. visited my grandma.. got to meet kikapu.. which I keep calling pikachu for some reason.. spend the whole day with her and other crusade friends.. relaxing day.. then got to go the Bristro bar.. nice place rite?? Think it’s a good place to relax and slack.. might be a new hangout since we can jam there from 3pm onwards.. can u believe that andrew did not know how to use the keyboards there?? 3 keyboards and a messy mixer.. YS: too bad u didn’t go.. another time ya.. and thanks for the green shirt and the cactus as well..

Jacky chan was at vivo on Monday.. thou I wasn’t that interested.. he was using a SLR cam to take pictures of the audience.. seemed like he was enjoying himself..

That’s abt it for march 09.. hectic month.. and the upcoming months will be like this.. call it a life?? Up to u.. but things sure are better than in 08.. ..

Now to plan for some short holidays..

February

2009-02-28T22:54:00.002+08:00

February has come to an end.. How time flies.. Also many things have occured.. New work.. New life.. New problems..

Firstly, thank God for the job opportunity.. I do like the place and people.. However the work itself is not that interesting..

Next.. CNY?? Not much meaning to me anyway.. But the good point was I met up with a cousin I never know.. And he got married recently as well..

Somehow weekdays seem to fly by and the weekend is here.. There's not much meaning in the weekends as well.. The same things.. Really do need something new in life.. Even if it means..

Anyway I'm still pissed with the 'efficiency' of MOE.. They take months to reply a simple yes of no.. Even a retard can give you an answer in one day.. Other than that.. I'm not too sure about the future.. Especially family and friends..

Ministry problems.. Am I incapable of organising such a ministry?? Why are there so many issues?? Are my efforts wasted?? Should I continue?? Or simply give up??

Haiz.. Why are there so many issues to think about?? There's something to look forward to.. Jay you know what it is.. Shhh..

Morale level - Low
Concentration level - Low
Problem level - High

Too tired to do anything at the moment.. And losing patience and control consistently.. What's going on??

Till next time when there's something really meaningful to write about..

A Chapter Closes and Another Starts

2009-01-06T20:45:00.003+08:00

Last time i blogged was in december and many things have happened in that short 2 weeks.

Firstly, Christmas. Apologises to those who received not so fantantic gifts from me. Didn't have the time to get many things. Thanks to YS and RJ for their creativity and efforts on the presents, didn't contribute that much help. Great job to all the choir members, the voices were angelic.

Next up was the leader's retreat. I'm glad that the session was fruitful and things were settled. However, the constant dilema of wanting to improve the situation and not getting caught in any conflicts always arises. Can the body function to it's optimum when it has a headache? Let's just end it here.

Next came work. Did OT till like 8 plus 9. Got to meet some of the guys for dinner on monday, but I felt I missed a lot of things that day. Originally I'm suppose to end this contract on 31 Dec 08. However, the supervisor and a few staff kept insisting that I stay on. To put it bluntly across, No Contract No talk, but I had to put it nicely across to them since I'll still be working in the same company but a differnt department. In the end the issue was resolved. I was speaking to a colleague who kept insisting that it's unlikely to be promoted or get a perm job at EM. Hey, from your qualifications, of course it's difficult. What's more important is that God gave me this opening when I least expected it.

New Year Countdown. This year seems different compared to previous years. Did enjoy the time playing taboo and a few other games. Unfortunately, we did not get to see the fireworks. With that, a year with loads to talk about has passed. Seems like yesterday that I resigned from my job.

Immediately after that was TAG retreat!! Non-stop for 2 weeks. I believe it was a fruitful time of discussion. Thanks to YS and Andrew for your lessons preparations. Also to Rich and his bro for the logistic stuffs and worship. RJ for preparing the items thou it was more than expected. Candice for the games. Simon for coming down despite your limited time. Jowyne for your bubblyness and Jennifer for your constant reminders to stay focus. I believe TAG has found freshness and has it's fire rekindled. Do continue to pray that we'll enjoy burning brightly and continue to grow together. Thanks all TAGgers. Was suprised with the number of people visiting and sorry to those who were looking forward to the BBQ that night. Maybe we can hold one another time.

So now I've got this one week break and I'm not too sure what I can do. Been thinking and here's some resolutions for this coming year:-

1) Improve relationships
2) Get my driving license by July
3) Improve my physical fitness
4) Improve my Bass playing skills
5) Leading TAG to greater heights

For the past month or two, been caught up with work and I've lost the closeness of some relationships which I hold closely to. Shall not mention who. Sorry to those I've hurt and to those I've negliented as well. Therefore, my priority is relationships. Now, my question is, how would a guy who doesn't talk much communicate? I've never been one who is good with words. What can someone do when there's silence?

Thank God for bringing me through 2008 and I pray that 2009 will be a fruitful year in terms of direction and relationships.

December..

2008-12-23T23:33:00.002+08:00

Loads of things have happened this holidays.. Not exactly holiday for me thou.. Been working immediately after exams.. Christmas has usually been busy for me.. Especially with church.. Time to blog everything before I completely forget..

Got results and officially grad le.. Yeah!! Bachelor.. But convocation in Aug/Sep 09..

Met my KK friends.. Really great to meet up with u guys after 2-3 months.. And encouraged by your sharings..

Here's a new one.. Friday 12 Dec.. Received a call from my agents to go for an interview on monday 15 Dec.. I was late by 15 mins and was completely informally dressed.. But did have a good chat with the manager thou.. The next day I heard that EM was axe-ing people and here I am.. Fresh from a job interview.. My goodness.. How to be accepted like that?? Praise God thou for on thurs my agent called to inform me that this dept wanted me and have already sent me the contract.. Received on 21 Dec.. That's fast to tie someone down.. Praise God!! I might even be offered a permanent job over there after this contract ends.. Best part is that it's at harbourfront.. Biggest headache is how to put it across to the current department that I cant extend the current contract.. Doing it tomorrow.. So I pray that it does not turn sour..

I'm still awaiting the results for my NIE application.. I'm sure many people know of my desire to be a teacher.. Thank God for the experiences I had as a relief teacher this year..

The other main highlight was My Hope SG.. Had the gathering on sat 13 Dec.. Enjoyed the time of fellowship and the miracles that occured.. YS.. God works in ways man cant image.. And I've seen such events when I was in KK similiar to Chloe's friend.. Unexplainable yet awesome..

The prayer I like to challenge God is to "Surprise me everyday".. And he never fails to do so..

Next would be the X'mas presents.. Thanks for the efforts by RJ and YS.. Have a good time on sat doing the presents.. Still.. I'm yet to settle a few others.. No time left..

Today 23 Dec.. Watched Twilight.. And the best part.. Ilango was beside us throughout the movie.. AND!! He was with Jeremy.. Lolx.. Jeremy wanted to ask YS along.. Guess who he was with.. Next I saw someone who looked like Rain.. Best part was I met Rain on the way back.. Seriously is SG that small?? Or does everyone look like Rain?? Lolx..

Well.. 2008 has been an eventful year.. Do not regret resigning and concentrating on studies.. Think I will write out a list of items to thank God for after Christmas and maybe some new year resolutions.. Till then.. Ask God to surprise u..

Some Updates..

2008-12-02T20:56:00.002+08:00

Results will be out on thurs.. Then I can what route to take come next year.. Still hoping to get into NIE.. Yet as the same time I want to work in a corporate environment and earn big bucks.. But the satisfaction may not be there..

For the past 3 months I think I've dropped out of the radar.. Haven't been catching up with friends nor family.. Lookng back based on memory.. I cant recall anything significant.. Other than working part time and currently as a temp staff nothing seems significant..

Some irritating questions I just recalled (I wonder why I bothered to answer the phone):-

XxX: I missed your sister!!
XxX: How does your sister look like??

Abit erm.. Ya.. Next..

XxX: Am I fair or dark? (This person is fair)
Jay: Not as dark as Ilango
XxX: How come everyone got meeting? And I have nothing to do?
Jay: You never ask 'Boss'?
XxX: Dare not talk to guys.

So why do you call me and ask stupid stuff.. After this I some how do not think that RJ asks stupid questions.. No offense RJ.. I'm not going to pick up calls from that number again.. Makes me piss off and wonder if there are any other buggers like that around..

To an age old buddy.. Though I enjoy bursting your ego bubble.. I think you managed to hurt yourself badly this time.. I'll try not to burst your deflated bubble.. As least till you recover.. Till then.. Catch up with you ya.. Been nearly a year since I got to sit down and talk with you..

Chee Min's Wedding.. The nice guy's finally taken.. And by a pretty babe as well.. Somehow that day seem so sweet.. Couldn't help but think about my own wedding.. What I will do to surprise her.. Can't play a song for her.. Quite expected.. What else?? At least I still have a lot of free time to think about it..

What do you view the opposite gender as?? Nothing?? A friend?? A possible soul-mate?? Guess what I feel.. To think that I can come up with lame pick-up lines with those 'princes'.. I duno what to say to someone whom I want to get to know more..

Can life be more interesting and exciting for me?? (Looks up to the sky).. Is it that I am not looking around?? Or nothing excites me?? Need new challenges since some have been completed..

Till I have something better to talk about..

November

2008-11-30T23:41:00.002+08:00

November has been an interesting month for me..

1.Exams Ended
2.Started Working
3.Results out in 4 days time

I do need to contact fom with friends now i got studies out of the way.. Feel that I've managed to distant myself from many pple..

Think I'll continue more tomorrow nite..

October..

2008-10-31T21:57:00.000+08:00

In the midst of exams until 10 Nov.. till then..

September..

2008-09-30T23:45:00.000+08:00

Wake me up when september ends.. been quite an uneventful month..

August

2008-08-30T23:42:00.002+08:00

alot has happened this month.. from the FOP to national day to relief teaching to assignments to football games..

so many things.. staring from the first thing that happened this month.. the relief teaching.. got to meet a few new friends while doing relief at OSS.. like gracies and nicole and christabel.. christabel's jonathan's sister.. my goodness.. and i met andy's brother.. so different.. nicole's the MOE scholar while gracies the home econs teacher previously at St Theresa.. also got to know some of the students.. fun batch of.. ya.. makes me feel like teaching more.. still waiting for the reply.. somehow i kinda know the results..

then there was national day.. the family outing.. i remembered that i just wanted to leave the house that day even though i was about half an hour late to meet the rest.. still managed to catch up with them.. walk till hort park.. nice scenary there.. had lunch at botak jones.. play street soccer with alvin and dave before heading to vic's place to watch the NDP.. somehow NDP doesn't excit me anymore.. it's the same old thing..

next highlight was the match against SACC.. that day i also had a mission trip meeting at funan.. i went down to meet those guys.. really glad to have seen them again.. everyone's getting busy with school now.. wanted to go play the entire second half but managed to reach about half way through the second half.. was effective thou.. scored a goal and half 1 or 2 clear chances.. either i wasn't confident of using the weaker foot or i just got faked by the keeper.. i though he was coming out to catch the ball but he stepped back and i did not go forward.. learnt from that and the next chance was similiar to the first.. this time with the knowledge that the keeper doesn't come out.. the outcome was different.. ironically thou.. ilango seemed alot happier than me when i scored.. lolx.. for a short 20 mins i had 3 goal scoring chances many of which were put through by the midfielders.. also.. RJ took nearly 200 pictures of that match..

there was this incident where this man came up to me and asked for directions to woodlands around church area.. somehow i had this urge to pass him money and to buy dinner for him.. looking back.. i can safely say it was God's prompting.. a chance that i had let slip by.. how do i know it was God sent? i cant explain but you'll know what it comes.. and i hope i realise it earlier and not let any more chances slip by..

other than the above highlights.. had a few assignments to hand in which i think were so-so.. have a test as well as another assignment to be handed in next friday.. hectic week.. also RJ's having her prelims now.. time she concentrates on her studies more..

till next month.. or when i remember what else to write about.. remember to do great things as if they were little and do little things as if they were great..

Festival of Praise

2008-08-02T00:28:00.003+08:00

i'm quite surprised many still don't know what FOP is.. it's been in singapore for 23 years.. but there's a new band - parachute band.. new songs.. but i think the message was more important.. below are the points:-

1. Peace (of God, With God and with others)
2. Encouragement (reminds me of matt's sharing on the previous sunday..)
3. Comfort (to comfort fellow brothers and sisters)
4. Fear of God (to remember God is with us..)

i feel that there things will help me as a teacher.. it's the perfect way for me to share His word.. but it's still up to God.. in His time..

till next time.. quite tired le..

July

2008-07-31T23:00:00.002+08:00

It has been awhile since i came here to blog.. but here it is..

been a month since i return from Thailand and life's getting back to the old and boring ways again.. struggling with life.. but i still remind myself of the great times i had in KK.. still do miss the place and the team.. like what E5 said.. we wont get another chance where all 15 of us will cramp into one room for sharing or worship or just to crap around.. i still think about what the next mission is.. and what's important in life.. man cant serve two masters.. so it's either money or God.. and throughout the past year God has provided much for me.. money doesn't seem so important.. think about it.. what is the thing that we can do here that we cant do in heaven?? the answer is to win souls for Christ..

these things have happened since returning

got to catch up with the youths when we watched the euro 2008 final at matt's room.. these guys had a great time of bonding during the holidays.. sad that i missed out but glad that i went on this "once in a lifetime experience" thou i don't want it to remain as once.. oh.. the slippers i wore to Thailand broke.. thank God that it did not break in Thailand and that i did not have to walk barefeet on the streets there..

Did meet up with some of the team members for a session of games at Minds on 4 July.. even thou it was only a few days since returning to singapore.. could sense the slackness returning.. but glad to see u guys again..

was asked to share about the mission trip to KKU during youth service on 13 July.. the sharing helped to remind me of the great and wonderful things God did for us.. it's during the reflections that one realises the situation around us.. I still do pray about Lion, Puay, Pair, Ying and Um.. Fellow brothers and sisters in Christ..

later that afternoon i met up with the team our first team meeting since returning fom Thailand.. thou it wasn't really a long time since we had last met.. it felt like a long time since we were in one room.. (reminded or Praise rolling around on my bed)

next thing to happen was ICT with my unit.. got to know someone in the same unit staying like 10 mins walk away from me.. somehow i feel that God had placed me in this unit for a reason.. i do know of some christians there.. but somehow i know that i'm not shining for Him over there..

on thenext youth service.. vic shared about his mission trip to Nagoya.. felt that his team were really protected by God.. he shared about the mass killings and "near misses" in his time there.. i was reminded by the power of prayer.. somewhere during my own mission trip.. my team took some time to intercede for the other teams on missions.. i just feel that everything's connected in some ways or another.. it's just indescibeable..

later that day.. SMC met COGS again.. this time was really a close fight.. unfortunately for SMC the ball did not go in one too many times.. COGS had their first victory against us winning 4-3.. ilango equalised after a freak goal from their goal kick which had bounded into our goal.. score at half time was 1-1.. second half and i started as the goalkeeper.. really bad idea.. ended up conceding 2 goals in 20 minutes.. i was later moved upfield to the striker's position and determined to score a goal for simon and richard.. an unfortunate own goal brought us back into the game.. and after scoring the equaliser from an optimistic ball upfield.. SMC looked in control in the game with the score tied at 3-3.. COGS managed to grab the winning goal with a shot into the top corner.. disappointed as we were.. it's good to see the fighting spirit in SMC.. sad that our fittest player will be in Korea soon.. and our goalkeeper serving the nation soon.. it's hard to find any possible replacements for these two indispensible players..

got the opportunity to do relief teaching again.. this time in OSS.. have been doing it for the past week and i got to meet many new people.. future teachers as well.. got to speak to the VP and understand from him that Business Studies is relatively new and that MOE is looking for teachers for this area.. Sounds God-given.. but only He knows the results.. so i can only trust in Him for the future.. i feel the same as i felt during the pre-mission trip phase.. looking back.. i can see that He had provided for me and i know that He will provide for me again.. Trusting in Him..

Youth on 27 july was small.. reason being that most of the youth were on a short mission trip to indonesia (forgot the place again..).. also the new newsletter is out finally after all the hard work.. thanks to everyone who contributed.. especially God.. now we have another tool to spread His word.. for those who want to take a look do contact me about it.. it's very cool..

in this month alone.. many things have happened.. and i doubt that the upcoming months will be any less boring.. looking forward to what God has install for us..

Last week in Thailand

2008-06-27T00:07:00.001+08:00

Day 19 – today is one of the most slack days. After devotion there was lunch at a Vietnamese restaurant. Had to use leaves to wrap the food up before eating. Disgusting since we had to eat leaves. After that we went to a Kodak shop to develop some pictures. Headed to fairy plaza after that cause I wanted to get some presents for my contacts. Found only 1 in the end. Back to hotel where I watched “The Return of the King”. Out for dinner at the same restaurant we went the previous night. Then we walked all the way to fairy plaza and I got a strawberry Sunday. Got a lift back to the hotel where we slacked again. Was playing PES 6. Time to go to bed. Nights.

Day 20 – today five members went to Riverlife church. They said it was a charismatic church and they sang songs like one way and my redeemer lives. Too bad I did not go down today. I stayed in the hotel and decided to look for new pictures cause I want to send postcards to some friends. This evening P’mini came down to the hotel to share with the Singapore team. Then here’s the irritating part. I got to give a love gift but I find that I have too little funds now. Think I wasn’t told about this. If not I would have prepared earlier. Irritating. It’s like giving $2. Pathetic right? But that’s all I can give now. Intend to give support when I’m back. But if I knew I would be going Bangkok I would have been better prepared. Enough complaining. Time to decide what to do.

Day 21 – devotion reminder me of the highs and lows of this mission trip. Not everyone had contacts contacting them. We stopped at one of the entrance to take a picture of the entrance. Then to the complex. Had a few people came to look for us but some of our contacts did not turn up and we had prepared a few things for them. Hopefully they come tomorrow to send us off. Had a few problems trying to settle the love gift for the staff. After that we had a buffet dinner at 109 baht. Less than $5. eat full full. But I went to the toilet in the middle. Though was some dirty food. Enjoyed our last supper at KK. Going to Bangkok tomorrow morning. Got to take a picture with Faith. Narak! Back to hotel to pack up. Time to rest. Good night.

Day 22 - had to leave the hotel at about 11 am. Was hoping that Ying and Um would be there since I had something to pass to them. Fortunately Um came so I could pass to him. Glad that I met him during the mission trip. He’s one of the nicest guy around. So the time came where we had to depart from Khon Kean. Oh. When they were issuing the tickets we realized that they did not give me the air ticket. And they said I was not on the list. Shocker. Can stay in Khon Kean longer. Lolx. Got the ticket eventually. Later I received a few gifts from the staff and took some pictures. Kinda sad thou. So we flew to Bangkok and made our way to the CCC guest house. Looks well furnished. We are staying at the 4th floor and 10 guys in a room with 6 beds and 1 bathroom. Lucky we are spending one night here. We walked around the place and there’s 2 universities around us. A lot of students walking around. We had sharing that ended quite late and had dinner at 9pm. Resting well now.

Day 23 – woke up early to bath at about 7.30am. 10 guys with 1 toilet is not a good thing. Anyway devotion was at 9 so still had time. It is the last devotion in Thailand and I’m reminded of the first love we can have with God. After that was the second part of sharing. At about 1pm we headed down to MBK. Smart me and 3 other guys had to go all the way to Patunam to find jerseys. The shops were closed and we went to platinum but left there since we not nothing to get. So all the way back to MBK. I got some gifts there before going for dinner. Dinner was at the night market. I did not buy many things there sadly. Not much time there. Realized that Shaun and Ian had gone back all the way to MBK to get some gifts for their supporters. In the end we all went back to the guest house and met each other along the way. Around 11pm we started our team evaluation. There were a lot of talk about but I don’t have the summary. End at about 2am. Shagged. I did not sleep so early so I went to get a drink. Ended up talking with Shaun for awhile. Can tell why people like him. Nice and funny guy. Wanted to type the journal but since all slept. Had no choice but to join them. Lolx.

Day 24 – the last day. Actually nothing much. Mostly traveling. From the guest house to the airport. Yokie, Joe and Um sent us off. Yokie is coming to Singapore in Dec. Can suan her again. Think she super irritated with me. So off we went to take the lousy Jetstar all the way back to Singapore. Had lunch with Shaun’s parents and think that they can be brought to church as well since my father clicks with his father. Slowly. Patience is a virtue. Have not slept since we landed. Going to sleep till tomorrow afternoon. Good night.

Thailand Week 3

2008-06-21T01:48:00.000+08:00

Day 12 – woke up at 6 am today to prepare for the games day. Reached KKU at 7.45 am. We set up everything and waited for our contacts to arrive. Unfortunately only 5 arrived. Thou the number was small the there was quality time spent. I was the game master for dodgeball. Played ultimate Frisbee as well. At the end we had a game SG vs THA. We lost 2-6 in the end. Had fellowship (Chicken rice from humans’ canteen) and sang the song we practiced for the previous day. I also recorded the testimony by Wilfred. Cleared the place and returned to hotel. Washed up and practiced for the skit for Friday. It was better than the previous practice – have to be right. Slept for an hour and had dinner. Our devotion time was changed into testimony as the Thai staff and volunteers dropped by. Tomorrow the team will be going to 2 services – mas selakat and KK. We got testimony as well as worship practice for the service at KK. Might be playing soccer again after service and dinner prepared by P’mint. Watching Spain vs Sweden. Hope Sweden wins. Nights.

Day 13 – got to wake up late today. Devotion at 10 am. Had another retreat today. So today went down to church earlier for band practice. Ironic that I have worship practice even in Thailand. After service played football at the new bible college. And the new meeting room is my room. That’s all for a boring day. Next week’s team meeting will be held in my room.

Day 14 – Monday. Third week. Morning breakfast at my room. Feels weird that I get to sit on the bed now. Lolx. And we broke a glass bottle just before we left. We did not have many appointments so we prayed that our contacts to contact us. God answered our prayers and currently at the team meeting it seems that the team is stretched. I’m using the laptop at the meeting coz it’s in my room. Now we are filled on Tuesday and Wednesday afternoon. 3 girls came to us and asked about chinese lessons. They came and asked “Ni Ke Yi Jiao Han Yu?”. Lunch appointment and then have chinese lessons in the afternoon. Meeting Lion on Wednesday afternoon. Hope to meet Ying and Um and friends on Wednesday evening. We met la’belle for lunch at Golden Grill and spent 100 baht. Burst budget le. And we went to the dormitory. Very big and got toilet loh. It’s cosy. Immediately after that we headed to Tukcom and had ice-cream at Swensens. Had dinner near CCC office and then back to hotel to wash up and team meeting. Juliana dropped by to say hi and gave us donuts. Now we are discussing plans for tomorrow. We can do street E cause we don’t have much time left. Should be watching football and resting early tonight.

Day 15 – started off normally. At school I joined Shuan in teaching a couple of girls english but I had to leave half way to join my buddy. So 2 of us were with 5 of them having lunch and we had the chance to share with them the 4SL. They were open to it and they raised 2 issues – why they wanted to do good and treating all religions equal. Next I went to a chinese class in time to play the guitar for the song “friend”. Managed to talk with some of them but tough cause she cant understand English. After that went back to the complex. I was praying for opened hearts and now at the team meeting it turned out that about the same time many really opened up and we were able to share the gospel with them. Had a short chat with Ai Ping on the way back to the hotel. A few more days left to do His work here. Time is short yet the harvest is plentiful. Praying for strength.

Day 16 – felt weird during the devotion so decided to ‘retreat’ awhile. In the end God told me one word to summarize everything he told me – Patience. The past two days everyone has been sharing the 4SLs around until I felt it was quite competitive. I told my buddy Wayne and Shaun about it and they felt similar about it too. So I passed a note to the ATL about this. After that we had lunch with Lion and thank God that he asked about the song “Silent Night”. So we tried to explained to him. He later asked about holy communion and eventually how to receive Christ. We shared the 4SL with him and he PRCed amazing how God sends people to us. What happened next was I had diahorea and Ai Ping had vomited as well. Could be spiritual warfare as well. Rested after that and had a english lesson as well. Nothing much after that as well.

Day 17 – I did devotion today and I think I made everyone confused. As expected. Oh and I said “The Vine” and it sounded like “Divine” unexpectedly. Also shared about patience to the rest of the team. At school, no one was around as many of the freshies were at the “Why Kun”. Not really sure how to spell it. But thank God we met a contact and he asked us to join in the ceremony. It’s a ceremony that all the freshies have to do. It’s like seeking the forgiveness of their teachers. We 5 of us sat in the ceremony and I nearly fell asleep. Partly cause I did not have enough rest the previous night and that we were too far behind to notice anything. Went back to the complex and rested then headed to CCC office – the venue for tomorrow’s party. Went back hotel and prayed about the venue as well as for the people coming. Currently it stands at 43 people excluding staff and the team. Praise God for these people. Just finished practicing the mime and fashion walk. After this is the powerpoint presentation. Good night for now.

Day 18 – today is the Singapore party. My buddy and I did not go down to the school cause we had to prepare for the party tonight. We went down to the church and had lunch at the stall beside CCC. The food was nice but not filling as usual. After that I continued on the powerpoint and the sound system. Praise God as we expected 70 people but only 43 confirmed they were coming. In the end there were 82 students. He gave us more than we expected. I was involved in the mime fashion walk and sing-a-long song. After the event took some group shots with Ying and Um and friends. And we went for supper at some street stall. It sold porridge and it was great. Lolx. I just tried crickets. Crunchy and tastes like seaweed. And I was online cause I was using some unsecured network at the church.

Thailand week 2

2008-06-13T23:44:00.001+08:00

Day 8 – nothing much happened during the day. But we met up some people that we did not get contacts from previously. Glad that they remembered us. Once again we went back to the shop and got some more contacts that we had missed out. While on the way back to complex we heard some shouting and so we went to check it out. Found out it was jon and chang yao teaching a class chinese lesson. Ironic thing is that my buddy and I who prepared the materials have not started teaching anyone yet. Got a video clip of them singing a chinese song. Back at the complex, we spoke to another group of contacts and they seemed willing to contact us again. Thank God coz the day started quite slowly for us. We taught P’daw to play Uno and the word search. And we got a chartered song tiao back to the hotel. He agreed to come pick us up tomorrow as well sparing us the time walking to the bus stop. During team meeting we had 2 points to share about – summary and memorable issues. Nothing much to write for now. Till tomorrow.

Day 9 – worship and devotion then our “chartered Song Tiao” fetched us to the school. We dropped at the student union area where our games day will be held. The open field is not as big as expected but we pray that it will be enough for God’s work to be done. We were waiting for our contacts to reply but no one did. So we decided to buy lunch and just as we were about to order food. One of our contacts called to meet us for lunch. It’s the one who brought my ministry buddy to the lake on sat. Thankful that he wanted to meet us again despite he knowing we are Christians. Turned out they will be free on Friday and they want to have ice-cream with us. Another thing while we were having lunch. Another contact called to arrange an appointment for chinese lessons tomorrow morning. Really thank God for these appointments. Also, we got 4 people confirmed going for dinner at the american’s place tomorrow night. An empty afternoon turned out completely unexpected. We left earlier via our chartered song tiao coz of the team meeting as some staff would be joining us. Just finished the team meeting. P’mint and P’daw shared their testimony and I feel encouraged by them. Makes me think if teaching is where I should be. Thank God for this day.

Day 10 – found out the replay for the football game is at 7am. Today we were preparing for our first eng lesson. Unexpectedly we shared our 4SL with them too. The class ended early and we had the time to play Uno. Had this girl who came up to me to say hi and I had no idea who she was. Met up some friends at 7-11 before heading to Christ and Misty’s home. I was quite surprised with the number of people who turned out – more than what we expected. Thank God for that. Got to know some international students as well. We sang “because he lives” during the dinner. Thank God for answering our prayers.

Day 11 – it was a day to look forward to. Outing with contacts outside school. Met them at 11 am did nothing till 12 for lunch and nothing till 1. In the end we went for ktv. But it’s all Thai songs. Took some pictures of how the place looks like. Also had an experience of riding a bike in Thailand. Interesting feeling. Quite scary as well. Prepared for the games tomorrow as well. I’m the game master for dodge ball. Pray that I can explain the rules to them as well. And I got to use the contact lens as well. Argh! We practiced the song as well. Can ask me for the video clip if you are interested.

Thailand week 1

2008-06-10T00:38:00.002+08:00

Ok. First thing I did was to send off the youth at harbourfront for the church camp. Had mixed feelings thou. Sad that I’ll be missing the fun over at Harris resort. Glad that I’m heading to KK. So after sending them off I went home to continue my preparation for the mission trip.

The day came when we were going to fly off. My dad went to Changi to send me off. I got a lift from a friend’s parent. Dad managed to click with my friend’s dad. We were happily taking picture until we nearly missed the flight. Thankfully we did not. We got on jetstar and it was crapped up. That’s okie. What’s worst is the service. I thought the food was free. And I ended up paying $3.00 for a pack of orange juice. Irritating. Then we tok cab to Don Muang airport for a domestic flight by Thai airways. You can see the difference in standard. Bugger. The thai staff meant us. And Praise was there. So cute!! They brought us to the hotel and dinner at the nigh market which I don’t remember the name now.

Day 2 started with breakfast. In our rooms. Got no buffet lah. Think some high class hotel meh. Our first visit to KKU. Started off at the Complex and had a prayer walk through the campus. After lunch we met up with some students. They are friendly. And thankfully my groupmate and I were the only ones who met Christian students. Swee!! Looking forward to the School of Management Science aka Business. Had dinner at the old market in the campus itself. The “song tiow” fun to ride in especially the edge. Talk abt life on the edge. Manage to return safely from KKU. Thank God for clearing all my papers too. Oh and I can use wireless in the hotel room. Hehe. Going to bed now after finishing the jam biscuits.

Day 3 – was looking forward to it. Wanted to go to the management science area to meet the contacts. Instead Note called the 2 of us for dinner. To our surprise. Note brought us to meet a group of 9 students. I had a hard time trying to speak thai. But I told them that I’ll speak to them in thai by the time I left KKU. Personal challenge. After that we walk to the drink stall but could not find the group of people we were looking for. Instead, we talked to the group of people tending to the stall. What I did was to order in thai and my buddy would tell them I’m learning thai and asked them to teach me something in thai. We found it effective as those at the drink stall asked some others who could speak eng. Before long my buddy and I were at a table with 5 new friends. They could speak eng and chi! W parted as they had class to go to. Hopefully they will contact us soon. Next we tried that on 2 guys our other friends were talking to end we ended up chatting quite well. Dinner that evening was great. There were like 6-7 students eating with us. Even on the song tiao back we continued to speak to some new guy. Currently quite sleepy so I’ll end off here. Continue on day 4.

Day 4 – was quite tired. Both my ministry buddy and I were slugging ourselves along. A group of students we met were from humans and all are English majors. And all teachers to be. Exciting part was that one guy had recently been to Singapore. Had a lot to talk to him about. After that we went to the stall again. This time was another group of students tending to the stall. I got a photo but I did not think the conversation went well. We only managed to get an email. Highlight of the day was dinner at T-bone. Refer to pictures. Now I’m just falling asleep. Time to play “bang”. Good nite.

Day 5 – ok. Had devotion of john 4 about sowing and reaping. Think the group of people we have met have been sowed. Our job could be to reap the harvest. In the afternoon we went back to KKU to meet some contacts. I had to return to the hotel to prepare for the mime. While my buddy got to go to the lake nearby. Sad. But I think we get to go tomorrow morning. We went back to Big C to top up our food supplies. Found some ‘food’ kakis. “wil-flirt” and “Chon”. Chon was the unsuspected food kaki finally revealing himself today. Got to go prac for worship tomorrow. Till then.

Day 6 – went to the lake for devotion. Firstly good job to Candice for the worship. Hope it was a good experience for you. Practiced frisbee and scratched myself. Pain. Lunch then finally sent cloths for washing. Thou I don’t think I had to wash it. Lolx. Went for service at Shalom Church at the new CCC office opposite Kean Inn Hotel. Refer to picture yeah. Then dinner then team meeting. Had a lot to pray about. Like health and focus. Oh and I can watch the euro games here. Hehe. Now Austria vs croatia.

Day 7 – we were to meet a new contact by the name of lion. He called us and talked for awhile. Surprised. Met him for lunch and found out that he had called the wrong number. Divine intervention. He agreed to join us for dinner at a friend’s place on Thursday evening. Just after that we met 3 guys from campus outreach. Next was 2 hours of rest. Coz we went to meet Um and Ying and 2 new friends. Drink oreo milk shake. Simon don’t u wish u were here? Um and his friends had recently been to SG. It was about dinner time so we went to the market to eat and we intro them to the rest of the team. Also there were people from campus outreach from US. Nothing else interesting about today. Time to rest. Called my parents and the guys just to say hi. Called maple to say happy birthday. Ended the day with cup noodles and watching the france vs Romania game

May

2008-05-30T23:25:00.000+08:00

May started with the beginning of my exams. But on the first day of May I went to maritche for the HSBC treetop walk. Surprisingly I was still quite calm at that point of time. Whatever. Did enjoy the whole walk with the youth. Got the red butt ant. The endless walk down. I’m quite thankful for this period. Also, I ended the relief teaching with bmss. Quite sad thou. Really enjoyed teaching those kids. Really intend to go NIE next year.

Other than exams. Preparations for my mission trip to Thailand were underway. Did nt really know my team but felt it was still good. Got to be thankful for the support raising. Many gave when I least expected it. Thank God. Spent a lot of money preparing for this trip. Especially the medical part. Need to take a few jabs. Pain. Been assigned the role of reporter. Quite interested in this role.

Also enjoyed meeting my kids for their day out. And they did quite well. A few A1’s. praying that I can relief them till the end of the year.

Also wondering why am I not at the church camp. Going to miss a lot of fun.

Till I return from Thailand.

April

2008-04-30T21:25:00.000+08:00

Had an interesting month for april..

did teaching for the entire month.. was kinda like hell.. but things improved ironically when the teacher i was reliefing return from her medical leave.. the VP introduced me to her like this..

VP: hi jason, this is ms ***. she just tendered her resignation.
me: *stunned

wow.. lolx.. and she was teaching at the school only from the beginning of this year.. don't understand why.. but that's not the point.. i tried my best to help those kids study.. and i can see who wants to do well.. i mean.. it's their exams.. i understand why the students dislike the subj.. esp the sec 4s.. even i fell asleep when the other teacher was teaching.. that's how bad it was.. got to know a few christians as well.. unexpected ones thou.. but it's gd to know they are there.. i do hope i can continue till the end of the year.. kinda feel an attachment to a few of the students now..

now i've got to concentrate on my own exams.. found a nice place to sit down and study.. the pink seats just outside secret recipe at vivo city.. so quiet during the weekdays..

lastly.. met up with my mission team mates.. nice group.. but did not have much time to communicate with them.. just hope i can raise enough support for myself..

that's all for now..

March

2008-03-31T23:27:00.000+08:00

March had been a long and unfulfiling month.. I cant recall anything much happening.. Maybe except for the Youth Sports Day at Sentosa.. Games at Minds.. The Nobodies's gathering.. My birthday.. Interview..

Firstly, had a great time at Sentosa despite the weather.. Think it's the company that's more important.. Sometimes I just wish days would be like this forever.. Carefree from most of the troubles in the world.. It's just a fantasy rite??

Games at Minds.. Once again with the Youths.. Start feelin so old whenever I look at the small kids.. But that's what makes them so lovable.. Including those noisy irriatings ones.. After Minds activity was pool.. I still am quite lousy at the game.. Then came dinner at Cartel.. Reminds me why I am a guy.. No veggie in the food served.. It's not like we purposely ordered without vegs.. It just came without vegs.. Had a good guys talk.. Maybe we ought to do this more often at a not so ex place..

Thanks to those who remembered my birthday this year.. It was smack in the middle of a few deadlines so I didn't plan anything for it.. The older I get the less I want to spend birthdays with big groups of pple.. All that remains are memories..

Had an interview to teach at Bukit Merah Sec.. It was more like they wanted to hire my anyway.. So it didn't matter.. So now hell begins..

Till next month..

February

2008-02-29T23:50:00.001+08:00

feb had been in interesting month for me.. ups and downs.. then again more of downs.. completed an ICT.. basically tt's abt all.. a belated condolescence to ilango for the lost of his dad.. he's been going strong since what happened.. esp since it happened during CNY..

dont really know what is installed for me in march or this yr.. but i'm sure he has His plans all set out before me.. he'll lead me to wherever he has planned..

been a long and emotional month for me as well..

*wonders

January..

2008-01-31T23:02:00.000+08:00

a new beginning a new year.. life has been interestin this month.. like swimmin on new years day.. sendin a new friend off at the airport.. meetin up with old ones.. and gettin to know others as well..

about meetin a new fren.. think we could talk about things quite comfortablely.. which is good.. i mean it seemed weird to send some1 off when you met her less than a week rite..

also met one of wyne's friend.. the one with the same birthday with me.. and she likes to laugh..

also started doing relief teaching.. fun and irritating as well.. i got to gain experience teaching as well as know many of the students .. i find it quite interestin.. but i'm tired as well..

so tired.. and duno wad to do.. so confused..

Long Month

2007-12-31T23:00:00.000+08:00

Merry christmas and a blessed year ahead.. December has been a great month for me.. had so many things to do.. like go overseas wif some buddies.. youth camp.. christmas party.. christmas day.. meta camp..

got to spend some time in KL wif vic, ilango, wyne and candice.. thou it was kinda rush but i enjoyed the time spent wif those guys.. so thailand in june?? or taiwan?? haha.. not much details to be mentioned here.. its in my memories..

youth camp.. felt so weird.. first not being in the comm and being outnumbered by girls.. the tides changing for the youth.. from more guys to more girls now.. got to take care of the younger ones.. get to noe alot of pple better now.. oya.. green rox.. esp our flag.. stayed waterproof and was still standing after sentosa.. thx rich and mich for your help wif the younger ones.. and their prez is still in the cupboard.. some1 remind me to give them.. kudos to dave and his comm for all their hardwork.. praise to be God..

christmas party.. to the "Let There Be Love" comm.. great job.. it was a bigger turnout than expected.. as well as food.. thx to those who brought extra food.. to ilango.. gj for leading the comm.. to simon for being the mentor aka assistant.. to rachel for scoldin those who went out of point.. to the 2 jeremys for the games.. to shireen for taking time to do the decos.. and brian for all the logistics.. and vic for the songs.. so where's the lunch ilango??

christmas day.. nice performance guys.. i've got the whole video.. so those who want it msn me abt it.. sorri gina for not acting.. but u've gt a new actress in RJ..

meta camp.. glad to hv met a few frenz there.. gd to hear abt God in other churches.. and the things He's done there.. there were many lessons learnt there as well.. like running the race.. guys role.. etc.. its all in my notes.. hopefully i can get to go on a mission trip as well..

pot luck.. thx for organizing the pot luck as well as stay over matt.. everyone enjoyed themselves.. esp the "guess who" game.. we've gt a few pix to add into tt game now.. so when's part 2??

went to see my grandma on the last day of the yr.. been awhile since i saw her.. feel quite bad abt it too.. can see it in her eyes.. she had looked after me when i was young and notti.. but i cant take care of her now.. she stays quite far away.. i'm reminded of how fragile life can be when i visit her.. i remember those days where i would run away from her coz i wanted freedom then.. coz i felt she was slow and irritating.. but as time passes.. i realise how concern she was for me.. i fed her dinner and i could see tt her eyes were wet.. nt to the extend tears rolled down.. but u could tell she was holding back the tears.. i din really tok much.. but being beside her was enuf.. i din wan to leave.. yet i duno wad to do.. i juz pray tt she really noe God and tt he would take her to heaven.. she looked so fragile.. i wondered how she looked like 60 years ago.. and her character than.. i believe my grandma was very pretty.. her eyes told me many things when i look into them.. she was kinda forced to marry my grandpa coz her parents din want her to be taken away by the jap during world war 2.. i rmb her tellin me it was against her will.. yet she still honoured her parents.. she also lost contact wif all her siblings.. (explains y i dun really hv loads of cousins.. maybe i'm related to u guys somehow) bottom line is tt my grandma has suffered alot in her life.. even now.. as she is slpin in the home.. i think she cries every nite.. i can feel the sadness whenever i leave.. she would lean up from the bed and wave.. not knowing if she'd see me again.. scares me.. makes me think if i really want to work in the world or shld i lead a life tt will touch lifes.. only God knows..

well.. i've got quite a few goals for 2008.. will write it in another post.. but i've gt the stupid ICT to settle.. so gt to pray about it.. other than tt.. i've got 2008 roughly planned out.. it's gona be a great yr ahead..

so long since...

2007-11-19T21:57:00.001+08:00

i blogged.. haha.. wrote this while in office..

exams..
i have my exams at the end on oct.. i felt i did enuf to pass.. well.. its up to God now..

trip to Thailand

went to thailand with clara's family and mich.. the first 2 days were slow thou.. did nt do much.. except for a city tour along the main river and a temple.. there was this sign in the temple which read "40 baht to give birds freedom".. its like.. giving money to them lah.. its sick to catch animals.. its even sicker to ask pple to pay for their release.. other than tt.. the tour guide said we were going to some souvenir shop.. end up go to the Gems Gallery.. u noe those rare stones?? ya those.. and y was i doing there?? in the end i bought a ruby ring for my mom.. ^_^..

day 3.. met up wif one of mich's thai fren and his fren.. tom and samatha.. found tt samatha was like a small ger.. actually she could not understand wad i was sayin lah.. lolx.. gt to thank them for spending time with us ard the shopping malls..

day 4.. otot.. but the most fun.. bought a huge bag at puntanam (4gt how to spell tt place) and found the jerseys i was lookin for.. gt it at 500 baht (abt S$22) and we gt a newcastle jersey for tom.. then we went to the place nrea MBK (4gt where again..) so i was carrying tt huge bag for abt 1km plus.. with all the stuff we bought.. i like tt bag thou.. haha..

day 5.. flew home.. 5 days seemed to fly by.. before we knew it we were back at changi airport.. anyway we took a pix beside the aeroplane.. and the plane was 1/2 full.. din really matter thou.. coz i fell aslp.. was too tired.. cant really type out everything in this post..

as for wad happened today.. wan to thx mich for ur msg yesterday.. rite now.. i wonder abt the reality of life.. tt there are so many irritating buggers ard.. pisses me off.. thankfully i dun lose my cool often.. sometimes i wonder wad they r thinking..

everyone heard of the saying "assumption is the mother of all disasters"?? well pple ard here do tt often.. they look at wad they wan to and dun look at anything else.. when everything is explained in tt "anything else".. sad but so true in life..

so peeps reading this.. plz dun be like tt.. or alternatively.. u can learn how to kiss ur mgr's ass and get promoted.. other than the fact tt i am careless.. pple ard me do not use their brains too.. or rather not at all..

now u noe some of the reasons as to y i intend to resign.. other than tt is the monotonous cycle of workin in an office.. nt fulfilling at all.. in fact boring.. not including the fact tt they make alot of noises.. and the voices..

a entry i wrote on 5 oct 07 (left in my email till now)..

Somehow.. Indonesia's telecommunication's network suddenly so gd.. I gt auto connected to their network.. 1st time in sg sia.. Okie.. Lunch break 3 1/2 hrs.. Heard of it?? Well these pple beside me did tt.. Lolx.. Coz mgr not ard.. Duno where they went.. I only noe they went shopping.. Doesn't bother me thou..

Fallin aslp again.. This whole wk has been like tt.. Super tired.. How.. Nearing 2 mths le.. Deadline coming soon.. Thot sep over le.. Shld be more awake..

5.08 le.. Stoning.. Time is so slow when u r doing things u dun like.. Oh.. I rmbed something.. I saw a name in a letter.. Tt name was "sharlene".. Sounds familiar??

Here are the Pix from Thailand...

Pix a little further back...

work work..

2007-10-04T21:24:00.000+08:00

I'm at a surprising point at work.. A point where I am lookin to do something.. Coz at the present time.. I'm waiting for replies for all my engagements.. So if they dun reply.. I cant do anything.. Except to send follow-up emails.. Which I've done too.. Since tt is done.. I can do updating of the status and filing of documents.. Guess wad.. I've done tt too.. So now.. I'm writing this.. Doing nothing to the extend of askin my colleagues if they need anything to be done.. And I've done tt as well.. Plus my mgr wont be in tmr.. So until he returns from his meetin.. I cant do anything.. Sianz..

Eating chocolate and strawberry biscuit.. Yummy.. 2 hrs more.. Slpy..

now u noe wad goes on at work for me.. but i dun feel like starting a career as yet.. still feel like a student.. life's short.. do wad u wan and do it for God..

Flown by..

2007-09-30T20:50:00.000+08:00

last day of Sep.. din realise been so long since i last blog.. seems like days hv flown by.. its oct le.. classes hv ended.. so exams coming soon.. tt means its decision time.. those of u who noe.. ya.. less than 3 mths.. but i dun feel like leavin.. but at the same time.. it would be the last yr i can study.. can only pray to God abt it.. family issues another prob.. if i quit.. tt means less $$.. hard to survive..

sometimes when i look at kids and their innocence.. i wish i could be back in those times where i can always turn to my parents.. they always seem to noe the solution.. nowadays.. its the other way.. gt to look after parents le.. tt's life..

if i do quit.. i juz pray i'll use the time wisely.. to do things tt i wont regret not doing.. haiz.. super tired on these issues.. maybe slping will help.. going watch the charity show..

Random Post

2007-08-23T20:26:00.000+08:00

Feel so tired sia.. Duno shld I be glad or sad.. Btw.. Gt revision to my salary.. Cool.. Totally din expect it..

Seriously I do not noe wad the hell I am doing now sia.. Slacking..

My schedule sux sia.. Clash wif all the games.. Irritating.. Nvm.. 1 more yr to go..

B4 my test..

2007-08-23T20:13:00.000+08:00

Do note that this was written on 22 Aug 07..

Help.. Cant stand the whiner beside me.. He sounds gay.. But he gd looks.. Tt's all he has.. Lolx.. One issue I'm surprised with ACCA students is tt they think ACCA is a professional degree.. ACCA is a professional qualification.. I duno understand y they dun get it.. Haiz.. Let them think wad they wan..
Anyway I'm kinda surprised one1 visited one of my online site (shall nt reveal which one).. I was quite glad.. I'm quite worried abt my test ltr today.. Hope I noe wad I'm doing.. God please give me the strength to go thru my course.. I'm really tired.. Oh.. Yesterday during lunchtime I met this lady.. She sat near to me and read "Our Daily Bread".. Kinda is like reminding me to do QT.. I admit I'm lackin at tt recently..
On Sunday morning when I woke up for service, I felt better.. Did not feel the stomach problems I hv in the mornings.. Thx God for tt..
I hv to thx God for bringing frenz near my workplace.. Guess who is in the same department as me now.. Celeste!! Yes.. Her cousin is tt person who shall not be named (u guys noe who it is).. She even has an introductory letter by the head of HR.. Wootz.. Cool.. She is like some big "signing" sia.. Plus I noe some of the frenz will be joining companies nearby.. Somehow I dun feel so lonely anymore.. Lolx..
Plz pray for my test.. Do hope I can do well.. Tt's all for now.. Until I return from my battle..

R pple stupid??

2007-08-06T21:01:00.000+08:00

Back to topic of stupid pple.. I juz had to prove that C (new person) is another irritating person.. Wad she did this time was to give me a cheque while I was doing something.. Pretending not to hear her.. I did not acknowledge that I heard her.. So after lunch.. I asked her who to pass the cheque to.. Her reply was - juz now tell you you never listen ah.. Lolx.. Duno y I had to check how stupid she was.. She never even confirm I heard her yet she still dare to say tt to me.. Guys.. Plz do not do such things in sch or in work.. Reflect badly on u.. Someone stop me from laughin at her.. I feel so evil.. Muahahaha..

Update on B.. Back to updating on the status.. I am suppose to update this column wif 2 info.. If it is dissolved and the date.. Since I only have the status and not the date.. I juz update the status lah.. Then I get back the paper.. With the status circled with a question merk.. Refering to the date missing.. And B juz sent me the dates this morning.. Lame rite.. I thot I was newbie enuf.. Yet pple can do such things.. Sad rite.. At least I noe I am not like tt.. But wad to do wif such pple?? I'm sure u've met pple like tt..

was watching the superstar thing.. the performance gt better and better.. to think the guys can dance as compared to the gers..

Is the world full of stupid pple??

2007-08-02T23:49:00.000+08:00

Is the world full of stupid pple?? Maybe.. But the world is full of irritating and self-cautious pple.. Wads the definition of irritating?? To me.. Irritating means exhibiting oneself as if one is the smartest of the whole lot when in fact they are the ones who contributed to the stupidity of man.. Why do I say so?? Lets look at 2 contradicting moments

Firstly..
A: did you receive any letter from XXXX..
Me: duno as it was quite awhile back..
(So A calls XXXX to ask abt the issue..)
A: you told me you never receive..
(Clearly to me tt was stupidity but being polite I replied saying I said I cant remember.. So A shoots me again)
A: then you told me you never receive it..
Me: ya, but I also said that I'm not sure rite?? too long ago le..
(So I went thru the files and show her the letter she saw refering to..)
A: y din you look thru the file earlier..

diaoz rite.. I mean y din YOU look thru the files before askin me?? Laziness or pure stupidity.. You decide..

Secondly.. I was assigned the task to update the status on a few items in excel.. So all I did was to update 2 columns.. I admit I was not using my head when I updating it.. But who cares.. It's nt my engagement.. Okok.. Lets take a look at wad B asks me this time..

B: Did you update the file??
Me: not recently
B: then y does this column say there is clearance??
(I'm thinking.. Okie my fault that I din read tt column.. But it was there when you brief me on this excel sheet.. So I wonder who put it there.. wait.. I juz check the previous time I updated the file.. It showed pending.. So now who else could hv changed it??)
Me: I'll update the file ltr..

Some1 explain to me.. Isit me who might hv made the changes?? I dun rmb.. Coz its nt my engagement.. Or isit B being stupid or irritating.. Well then again.. B does bug me with his whines.. As I type this.. I really wonder y I would change the status when I din receive any clearance.. Haiz.. Y do I bother myself wif such useless things..

Deep Impression..

2007-07-30T22:20:00.000+08:00

Greed:	Medium
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Medium
Sloth:	Medium
Envy:	Medium
Lust:	Very Low
Pride:	Medium

Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz

i hv alot of pride?? wad the..

so anyway.. something tt left a deep impression on me.. a man by the name of Mathieu Gordon Anthony.. he approach victor out of need askin vic to help him out wif him ez-link card.. at first i thot he was some old man lookin for easy money.. so much for first impressions.. so on the way from the traffic light all the way to the MRT station he spoke to us.. i noticed that he trusted us so much tt he gave his ex-link card to vic.. for me i felt he was a sincere man.. he further told Nick and me y he approached vic - the cross he was wearin.. so the conversaton went on.. turned out he wanted to go for a job interview.. and tt he had nt eaten anythin.. i decided to get him a drink.. u shld hv seen how tired he was by the time we reached the MRT.. got to say a "good one" to Nick.. i thot Nick bought a sandwich for himself.. turned out it was meant for Mathieu.. so sweet ah Nick.. *hint hint.. so anyway wanted to get his contact number.. he did nt even own a telephone at home.. so got his house address.. Blk 11 York Hill #07-106.. i scared i lose the paper ah.. he was so thankful tt he met us tt he kept saying thx..

all the way to Vic's house i kept thinking abt this old man.. wonderin y he was in this state.. and more imptly.. y he kept thankin and praising God.. hey Dave.. when u wan to pay this man a visit??

wonderful ways God can touch u.. in this case a simple old man.. nt some great man who came back from the dead.. or some1 who has healin powers.. juz a simple old man..

k lah.. i see things improving in my life.. thx God for tt..

Update..

2007-07-28T21:31:00.000+08:00

well.. finally decided to blog now.. i noe its been a long time but yeah.. betta than nvr..

now uploadin some past pix on multiply.com.. hope u guys enjoy it..

recently been quiet at office.. everyone is everywhere.. oh man.. cant think of wad to write abt..

movies.. think the betta movies i've seen has been transformers and harry potter.. i keep lookin at yellow cars recently.. one wonders y.. any1 to catch rush hour 3??

time to stop.. nth going into my head now.. till next time..

work work

2007-06-02T23:07:00.000+08:00

been workin for near 6 mths.. got the letter to be confirmed.. so now can comfortably say i'm workin at Deloitte.. but somehow.. as God-given as it seems.. i dun feel like my future..

i'm still thinkin of being a teacher.. a lecturer.. something tt would give me time to concentrate on God family and frenz.. life now does not seem so great.. so many things nt done..

am i lucky or is God lettin me taste success?? do u noe how many accountancy students wan to get into a big 4?? how many of them actually get in?? as interns or as employees.. i din get into any of the auditing firms as a student.. no recommendations.. no experience.. no nth.. so it has to be God's doing.. i hear so many pple toking abt how hard it is to get into the big 4.. and here i am wonderin how all this happened..

the confusing part is.. does God wan me to listen to wad i believe is his callin or do i stay wif wad he has given me.. i do nt noe.. and bcoz of this.. i drag myself to work everyday.. something's nt rite..

i envy those who r able to go overseas for mission trips.. i cant experience such things at the moment.. may God always refresh and continue to enrich these pple..

somehow i envy those who serve Him wif all their lives.. but i dun evny those wif everything in life.. hmmm..

only post for May..

2007-05-01T23:00:00.000+08:00

at least there's a post for may okie.. i gt alot of things to say.. maybe another time..

Long Week

2007-04-09T20:43:00.000+08:00

been a long week.. my dad's b'dea on tues.. same as candice's dad.. din really get to eat dinner with my dad coz he was bz.. i went to MS rite?? couldn't rmb where.. went out too many times with the young adults le.. haha.. wad happened on wed was i took mc.. lolx.. felt my spine pain.. lucky the doc said it wasn't a split disc.. so anyway spent the rest of the day sitting straight.. wanted watch the Man U game.. lucky din..

thurs was a normal working day.. nite went all the way to bugis.. it was more like pei-ing mag lah.. tio fake by her.. caught "meet the robinsons".. it gets six stars out of five..

the real fun starts on fri.. yup.. gd friday.. had lunch wif family for dad's belated meal together.. went back to church for the camp.. i was the games master wif dave for "jesus' tomb".. so me gt to be the "angel of death".. i was so gd at it tt it made one of the kids cry.. lolx..

after that had band pract.. the day seems to be passing quite fast.. next big thing was the b'dea cake.. think candice din expect it.. gj.. next was winning 11.. i shall nt team wif brian.. those who watch us play.. u'll noe y..

next thing i knew it was morning.. not used to waking up at 6 plus sia.. okie.. went labrador park.. lucky we brought the ball sia.. everyone played.. uncle lester and a few young kids.. enjoyed ourselves.. spent the rest of the day slackin.. too tired..

sunday too was a long day.. gt Hary's farewell lunch.. played arcade.. getting lousy le.. then had dinner.. enjoyed dinner the most even thou it was at a hawker centre.. all the jokers..

exams coming up.. pray i can absorb as fast as possible.. gambatte to all having exams..

B'dae

2007-03-27T23:37:00.000+08:00

Thx to those who took their precious time for dinner today.. appreciate it.. thou i started to act like some kid again.. lolx.. this was how my day went..

this morning i went to visit my grandma.. i din really noe wad to say to her.. she's actually quite fine.. can see her faking abit here and there.. lolx.. prayin tt she'll be fine and well.. had lunch at Jalan Kayu.. where the BEST PRATA in SG is.. tt's wad the signboard said lah.. oh.. was wif my mom thru-out.. also took the LRT for the first time.. not exciting.. haha..

lunch till tea-time.. played arcade.. Virtual NBA.. kinda sux at tt.. lolx..

thx to RJ and Clara for making their way down to coffeebean.. and i've lost touch in my maths!! couldn't do those qns sia.. sori..

then dinner.. okie lah.. i agree the food was pathetic.. lolx.. thx for the cake and songs.. but i expected it.. nt so fun.. haha.. the b'dea wish part was interestin thou.. wish no.1 - to see RJ in a skirt THIS sunday (1 April 2007).. N1 guys..

the last part was spent doing some powerpoint presentation.. for this thurs.. pray tt my group can do well..

the final 10 mins.. reading RBC - online Our Daily Bread (www.rbc.net)..

goint slp now.. thx again everyone who rmb(okie.. i kept quiet abt my b'dea to see who rmb-ed.. now to see if my colleagues do noe.. ^_^)

It's tt day again..

2007-03-27T00:17:00.000+08:00

Its 27 March 2007.. dun really feel like celebrating my day.. dun feel like previous days.. isit coz i'm juz older?? or there's no goal in life for me.. sound so pessimistic.. lolx.. i shall juz wait and see wad the rest of the day holds.. i'll upload pix if i can.. nitez..

Free to blog..

2007-03-04T21:53:00.000+08:00

well.. haven been bloggin for a long time.. let see.. from feb.. went to vic's house for an all guys out nite.. okie.. not an nite out coz we were at his house.. lolx.. nth much other than tt.. wad else can u expect us to do?? guys awake at nite.. only means winning 11.. lolx..

had an outing with the guys on thurs.. enjoyed the tok we had.. feels so old sch.. missed times like those

oya.. the tests.. one was hard while the other.. crap.. lucky i nvr waste so much time studyin.. now gt proj and i duno wad i am doing as well.. power rite..

lets pray for the bbq on 17 march tt it will be successful..

signin off now..

Opps

2007-02-28T23:50:00.000+08:00

lolx.. seems i missed blogging for Feb sia.. okie lah.. been busy and all.. wait till i gt time to upload all the pix and my life.. then again.. wad life?? going to work now..

Man-of-the-Match

2007-01-28T22:38:00.000+08:00

Plz vote for ur MOM..

Voter - MOM

Dave - Matt

Simon - Matt

Jason - Matt

Do leave a comment on who u think was the Man-of-the-Match..

Soccer...

2007-01-28T21:46:00.000+08:00

Good job to the Agape Youth who beat COGS.. The scoreline nt so impt.. Here are the feedback from ur 'manager'.. its nt easy being one.. appreciate the games andrew tang org.. now i noe how they felt..

Good points..
- Def did well (esp matt, including simon)
- Midfielders who ran tirelessly (except me)
- For scoring the goals
- Communicating well

Points to improve on
- too little communication (only a few called. i.e. matt and ilango)
- too little teamwork for players of our age (individual skills are there, time to improve on passing and keeping control)
- lack of keepers (thx for simon for the safe hands)

i feel sori for COGS.. for those old enuf to hv played St. Andrew's Cathedral youth, you would noe how bitter and painful it is to lose with tt big a scoreline.. we are playing a friendly and there was no need to score tt many.. i noe u guys had the hunger to score.. but rmb to spare a thot for our YOUNGER opponents.. if you do nt want to hv the bitter feeling of losing so badly.. plz dun do tt to others.. furthermore judging form the 1st half.. we would win.. and i wanted you guys to focus on playin gd football.. maybe its my fault for nt telling u guys this.. but do think it as.. do to others as if u wan others to unto u..(cant rmb wad verse it is)

on a brighter note.. thx to uncle anthony for helping book the field.. and for the supporters coming down.. i felt everyone enjoyed themselves.. and sorry to the guys for sub-ing and nt playing u all.. felt bad abt it.. esp to rich.. i wanted u to start but due to ur boots prob i had to leave u out.. and for uncle boey for coming to join us.. his youth group had a game today yet he came down to join us.. RJ and nick for taking the pix.. u guys in action.. lolx.. and most imptly for God.. he helped me org the game dispite my busy schedule and gave us gd and cooling weather.. PRAISE GOD..

DEJA VU!!!!

2007-01-24T22:07:00.000+08:00

deja vu?? well.. today i felt like tt.. how?? well after watching tt channel 8 show at 7pm.. i went to tune a guitar for RJ.. and guess wad.. this malay guy approached me to ask me teach him guitar.. wow.. okie.. i din read dave's blog until i gt home.. and wow.. exactly the same as dave sia.. but i din get his number.. is this God at work or juz deja vu?? i'll let you decide.. nitez guys..

Back.. Year-end review..

2006-12-27T18:25:00.000+08:00

i know i've been away for a long time.. but nevertheless.. i'm back.. 2 mths of nt blogging.. alot to catch up with..

for the mth of nov.. i left my temp job and searched for a new job.. and i dun rmb anything much.. lolx..

dec.. great month.. new job.. youth camp.. x'mas party.. to all those who put in heart and soul.. blood and sweat.. a great job well done.. esp the weather for sat's party.. everyone saw the dark cloud above the church.. but i'm sure nt many saw the dark clouds part right before it reached the church.. i was praying in my heart that God would show everyone his' power by holding back the rain.. and he did..

i couldn't do anything much for this party as i started working last monday.. and u've got to thank matt for all his efforts.. and sleepless nitez.. to the band for despite the short practices we still played well.. i still felt i did not do well.. but its not up to me to decide what is well enough.. it up to Him.. i'm sure he's happy with all the efforts that were put into the party.. and it was a new experience to play on a rooftop.. with the winds blowing the scores away as well as the dark clouds.. its good to trust the Lord.. and he wont let his children's work go in vain.. Remember we did it for Him and not for ourselves..

Michelle and the girls for the deco.. lots of preparation for it okie.. you guys know the number of days they spent in church doing the deco?? just alot coz i dont remember as well.. lolx.. who did i left out?? the people who came.. i expected the max to be 40++.. but praise God the official number was 59.. thx RJ for the admin side of things.. 59!! that's twice the youth size..

Rich and Eve for the games.. Eve's a gd games mistress ya?? i'm sure i could not do what she did.. Rich for welcoming the guest on the ground floor.. good job guys..

and the food.. we thot that catering for 35 people was enough.. was it that we had little faith in the number of people who would come?? even if we had more budget.. would we have ordered more?? i believe its a sign that God wants us to have faith that if we do our parts.. he will do His.. He has shown his wonders of holding back the rain and bringing in the numbers.. time we walk by faith right guys??

2006 has been a great year for the youths.. fresh blood in the sense of new people that they have grown closer to the seniors.. the seniors taking up more responsibilities.. the army guys returning to help out.. signs of a great revival.. so many signs.. will 2007 be even greater?? will Agape be prepared?? i pray that we all do..

got to thank Vic for the 'impromtu' youth camp.. there wasn't much time to prepare for it yet he pulled it off.. thank God for it.. for once there were more girls than guys.. and i was the oldest.. had to watch my behavior.. but i'm glad the younger ones enjoyed themselves without the seniors..

to Vic.. no prob dude.. as long as i am able to help out i will continue to do so.. do cont to org more camps.. u can start next years youth camp soon..

and monday's christmas item.. thx to Rich for organising it so last min.. i guess that most of us were shagged out from sat's christmas party..

and lastly my work.. i'm fitting in quite well.. thank god for that..

i'll continue to blog in future when i have the time.. God bless U all..

Bad week..

2006-10-25T21:49:00.000+08:00

October.. been a long mth.. so many things.. i wan to write a efw things but i dun wan some ple to see.. wad can i do?? okie.. been working since the last post.. then last sunday.. gt injured.. and still recovering.. nth much..

how do u noe if something is from God?? he tells u?? some1 tells u?? do u feel it?? then wad if ur scared to claim it?? scared of rejection.. God plz show me ur way..

sometimes the reason y i dun blog is coz i gt nth to say.. things i dun wan pple to noe.. so comes the reason.. y do i blog in the 1st place?? juz becoz some1 asks u to blog.. doesn't mean u hv to rite?? so wad if there is no inspiration??

dun u feel like u wan the world to stop sometimes?? okie.. now eve thou i gt a mc.. i still feel sick.. duno how to recover.. tired.. pain..

i pray tt i will feel betta tmr.. coz tmr is a present yet to be received..

awaken..

2006-10-11T22:14:00.000+08:00

sep has ended and i dun feel like waking up.. 2 mths since i ord-ed.. life has changed alot.. new frenz.. new circles.. back to reality.. closer to God and frenz..

been slacking the last 2 mths.. now its tough to get back into the normal life.. keep falling aslp in the day.. and now at nite.. i'm wide awake.. office isn't for me.. boring!!

gd luck for those going take their exams.. and God bless to those who hv finished.. nth's on my mind now.. blank..

read rich's blog some time ago.. and he's really writing for God.. u noe its from God when u feel him even if u duno the writer.. its like u noe its ur dad walkin into the rm when u dun look.. u feel him..

i need to hv targets in life.. seem to 4gt all since going into army.. may God lead me..

Sept..

2006-09-30T23:23:00.000+08:00

wake me up.. when Sept ends.. well.. looks like its the only blog for sept.. at the last min.. okie.. i shall blog abt this mth another time..

tmr going visit ilango at safti.. hope he's okie there.. i dun feel so gd.. but thank God for everything else..

a new beginning..

2006-08-17T14:50:00.000+08:00

i noe it has been a long time since i last updated.. since the beginning of august.. wad has happened since?? lets see..

there was FOP.. they invited christian city church from australia.. don meon.. its gd to rem tt God is always there for us.. really got to thank those who went tt day.. it was really a last min thing yet so many could go.. juz reminds me of how much we shld do for God.. shld we do our mininal?? or give our all?? life's qns..

next in line was national day's eve.. morning went back to camp to get my pink IC!! yeah.. but the place was so quiet.. i couldn't find any of my colleagues.. so sad.. did nt get to say my last gd byes.. but still.. can always call them.. they use free de.. lolx.. all the best to those in ETI.. then had to clear my credits.. crap.. the gift shop auntie moved.. din get to say gd bye as well.. argh!! but the pt was.. i ended up buying 2 pair of shoes and 20 pairs of socks.. and 2 towels.. wif $80 of credits left.. wasted.. its all forfeited le.. anyway the pt was tt the bag was v big.. since i was meeting some frenz.. i din wan to carry it.. thx gina.. for helpin me keep my stuff till my dad took in from u..

so after going city hall.. i met my pri sch frenz.. had some fun outing at settlers.. it's at holland v there.. crap thing was.. there were so many NUS students there playin games.. and they were so 'childish'?? wow.. culture shock.. but i believe they were the 'outstandin' pple.. coz they were suppose to be doing their flag day.. nvm abt them.. we played till 6 plus coz all had to go off.. lucky for me i was stayin ard the area.. the ger workin there was quite cute.. when we were going off she looked at me smiled then turn away.. ^_~.. maybe go back there sometime?? there was this ladies nite promotion there for national day.. $7 games and free drinks for the whole nite.. diaoz.. pity those who din go.. missed out on the fun..

after they left.. headed to this place call '211 cafe'.. nice ambience in the middle of hdb flats.. nt bad.. if u dun bother thinkin tt there r flats ard.. was there early.. so sat down and thot of things.. wad to do in future.. so the b'dea boy came.. wif some old faces - mag.. no pun intended.. had a great time to put it in short.. since it was a public holiday the next day.. decided to go out.. if u think we went clubbing.. ur wrong.. juz went for a late nite movie.. eh.. the movie sucks lah.. where gt nice.. we watched dragon tiger gate.. any1 who was it.. plz tell me it was a waste of money.. lolx.. after tt went home.. zzz..

din do much for the next few days.. ORD loh!! so the next interestin thing was going for rag day?? my fren jio me go see see.. the performances were interestin.. other than tt.. okie lah.. main idea was to go see if the field can use.. can lah.. they only used the stadium field!! nvm.. went home after lunch.. received a msg from an old fren askin me to go for a drink at nite.. too bad couldn't.. nt meant to be bah..

as to y i could nt meet my fren.. i went down to expo for the PLANETSHAKERS concert.. eye opener.. it was really rock.. met tom's fren.. who was at the rag day as well.. coincidence?? lolx.. who noes.. only God noes.. ^_^.. no more comments on this part..

next day.. well.. i missed rich's baptism.. sori dude.. wads more impt is u showed the world u r God's le.. tt u hv told the world u accepted him as saviour.. anyway.. met esther's fren.. cant catch her name.. thot she some indonesian.. lolx.. duno y i had tt impression.. lolx.. btm line was.. i hv been meetin new pple.. y?? hmmm.. back to the day.. played soccer.. and bball.. was really shagged.. ran alot..

as for the rest of the wk till nw.. been doing nth.. and my stamina dropped alot.. my 2.4km failed le.. ^_0.. time to keep running.. any1 on?? wait.. no1 really comes here to read.. lolx.. hope i find some job soon.. part time de.. any lobangs?? ^_^

P6 gathering

2006-08-04T21:39:00.000+08:00

my pix from our p6 gathering.. sori guys..

Pix from ermm.. long ago..

2006-08-04T20:12:00.000+08:00

plz dun blame me.. i had to upload pix.. so might as well upload all..

first.. from my pri sch gatherin..

khoonw yew and me..

juz spoilin the pix..

group pix

long lost frenz

pri frenz

the latest agape youth gatherin.. at sentosa.. thx to rich for the games.. ^_^

hot babes??

strong matt..

closing prayer..

a hude fish at ubin.. 4gt the breed le.. but the tortoise was the size of my palm.. scary rite..

big fish..

clara's b'dea.. i gave u ur prez.. plus the pix.. then u can laugh at my army pix.. gd loh.. ^_^

gers..

group pix..

jen's b'dea.. gt other pix i nt going to post.. lolx.. like her other classmates.. muahahaha..

group pix..

very wif jen..

headless..

lydia and pei ling..

a small outing wif amy ard..

amy..

strong vic..

chloe..

church camp.. i'm sure most of u guys seen it le.. so nt much exciting..

rich and me..

mr bunny..

st matt idol's judges..

nodobies' room..

gd cards..

nick my man..

nodobies again..

3 less 1..

pei ling jie..

lookin ard..

waterfall..

close up..

water's cold..

smile..

nice bods??

???

x-men..

shake shake

st matt..

youths..

nobodies b4 leavin..

hardo gays..

on the bus..

ilango wif mr bunny..

xiao wei's b'dea at cafe cartel.. juz rem.. heez..

gers posin..

me..

rich and vic..

shy ger..

maple..

b'dea pix..

b'dea ger..

the cake..

cell at wyne's place..

soft toy..

eric's weddin.. sori i din post it up earlier.. lazy mah..

bears..

nobodies..

gers posin..

gers..

2 young ladies..

flowers..

agape youths..

tap..

my tango wing mates.. bryan's gone to america le.. all the best..

tango buds..

vic's 21st b'dea at some country club.. dun rem the name.. but its quite nice.. weren't we tokin abt going there for a swim??

gina and dim sum(i mean lee sum)..

hui bros..

jane..

on the way home after my b'dea celebration..

vic..

fae's weddin.. nvr sabo fae.. sianz..

group pix..

gina..

Great Weekend..

2006-08-02T21:17:00.000+08:00

started to clear my stuff from camp.. stupid sbo.. well.. no more uniform for me le.. yeah!! as the headin goes.. its a great weekend..

started at youth.. God made his presence felt.. not only to chloe.. but to every1.. i mean we can see it.. chloe u can be influencial.. ya..

so after tt.. was deciding whether to go down to costa sands for pri sch gatherin.. well.. in the end i went.. started off wif me suppose to take mrt down.. went in le.. then dave call me to take cab.. 3 less 1(in chi).. so i went out and met them.. took cab reach there..

at 1st it felt weird coz it was more of a 6a getherin.. but i was in 6b.. i knew them coz i was in 4a wif most of them.. not bad bah.. i knew 1/2 of them.. met a few i din noe at all.. gd to noe new pple i guess.. alot of them lok diff.. and best part.. some recognise me.. lolx..

where was bbq.. and some1 gave me not cooked food.. end up she gt food poisonin.. din noe i could tell it was nt cooked yet.. surprised.. took alots of pix.. unfortunately mine nt up yet.. sad.. at nite played card game.. so we played indian poker isit?? the one wif the lowest and highest card had to drink water.. i duno rdank how much sia.. to end the game.. the guy who cant hold his bladder had to go outside to piss and shout "I LOVE ZHANGDE!!" it wasn't me.. lolx.. i couldn't stop going toilet till 12 noon.. lolx..

kinda miz them now.. 10 yrs le.. all grown up..

Relaxin days

2006-07-25T23:09:00.000+08:00

1st of all i like the songs on Rich's blog.. wish i could sing like them some day.. wads been happenin in my life this july?? waitin to see where i will go after ord.. the answer is SIM.. thou i wont enjoy a full time studies.. i will get my degree faster.. gd?? its up to God.. he noes wad i am thinkin and wad i realli wan..

lets see.. been to pulau ubin for eti's 1st anniversary.. its kinda nice place.. but transport there is long?? a ferry ride of 15mins.. not to mention gettin to pungol marina resort.. the scenery there is nice.. think its a gd place for a youth camp..

the musical in which alvin was in.. alvin's a realli talented guy.. he can study.. play instruments.. i cant say i realli noe him.. but he does glow wif God's glory..

gd job Rich for organising the games at sentosa on sunday.. i'm sure every1 enjoyed themselves.. wish i could spend more time wif the youths..

tt's my worry seriously.. and the main reason y i dun wan to go work.. i'm nt prepared yt i guess.. sch starts in jan next yr.. and its evenin class.. wad i'm think is to work for God.. there hv been hints or callin.. from him i guess.. since?? the church camp.. maybe start workin full time in jan as well?? i dun hv any direction at the moment.. God plz lead me..

some thing i wan to achieve.. well to become a cpa.. then?? work in a hotel.. i feel i hv to work in a place tt needs human relations.. i like helpin pple.. maybe tourism??

cant help it but.. my heart's wif God.. for eternity i guess.. nth would change tt.. much as i wanted to turn away.. i eventually turn back.. thou he doesn't ans my wishes.. i noe he has the best for me..

am i juz comfortin myself?? i hope i'm nt.. i dun get wad i'm thinkin most of the time..

Worried

2006-07-19T18:20:00.000+08:00

i'm kinda worried if i dun go to where i wan.. would i?? anyway its gd to noe tt chloe is a tough believer.. as well as rich.. continue to grow guys.. i duno wad else is there to say for now.. maybe blog later..

Quiz

2006-07-08T19:36:00.000+08:00

Found this on my fren's site.. found it a big joke.. lolx..

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Finally back!!!

2006-06-26T21:54:00.000+08:00

finally back to bloggin.. if u guys din noe.. my com crashed due to virus.. finally had it back up on sun mornin.. haiz.. wad hv i been up to?? hmmm.. frustrated coz cant do the newsletter.. now can start le..

i'm clearin leave le.. so u wont see me in camp le.. go there slack le.. ORD mood.. whahaha.. i went camp like 3 days for the past 2 weeks.. leave and mc.. no chow keng hor.. had slight fever.. at least tt's wad the doc wrote.. lolx.. so been fixing the com.. lucky gt the world cup pei me..

bought my portable hard disk.. like it alot.. kinda nice to bring ard.. rest of the time was spent lookin at my com..

disappointed wif some teams in the world cup.. esp Korea!! and Holland.. haiz.. both knocked out.. surprised tt clara watches football sia.. can name me a few players..

oh ya.. thx for the cheesecake.. muz remind me to copy by this sat hor.. hmmm.. like gt nth else to write le..

gt the worship session.. glad tt rich is playin in the band.. its okie to make mistakes.. if u think u made alot.. think again.. i made more.. anyway.. gd job.. back to the newsletter.. dota and the world cup.. Ukraine betta go next rd!!! Shevchenko!! cya guys..

Church Camp!!!

2006-06-09T19:10:00.000+08:00

1st things 1st.. hapi b'dea to richard and maple.. a day where u get prez.. lots of them..

next.. my pc is infected!! and i duno how to get rid of it.. actually not so jai lat.. but it's still irritatin.. and i need a portable hard drive.. *hints Wyne..

next.. we all noe we went for the church camp.. let start off with last thurs.. i only applied for my exit permit on tt day.. then nvr pack till sat.. some more jio vic go to the pc fair.. bad idea.. we went back late and vic fell sick.. saturday nite fever.. so ended up packin till 2am.. shagged.. scared cant wake up the next day.. ended up Matt overslept.. after service we went tiong to find speakers for our entertainment in our room.. couldn't find.. ended up buyin fast food.. went back and got rdy to go gunung ledang resort.. took abt 4 plus hrs.. nth much interestin to blog abt on our way there..

reach the resort at abt 5 plus 6.. had the pentecost service and tt was abt all for tt nite.. so.. in our room.. we had a ipod.. but no speakers.. so we.. used the amp.. nice sound loh.. can heard the guitar playin.. wad to do?? we r the nobodies.. lolx.. tt nite.. we played bridge.. wow.. those 3 hv improved alot.. i couldn't get the game play.. took me abt 2 days to catch loh.. tt's abt it.. slpt at 3..

day 2.. woke up late.. 8am.. worship and teachin sessions.. God's presence was wif us.. i would say when we din expected it.. its a feelin one can explain until u experience it.. tt was the morning.. afternoon we went up the waterfall.. nice water sia.. cold thou.. all the man hunt.. u can see the pix soon bah.. a gd place to relax.. then we had the dive!! one by one jumped into the water.. thou i was more like dropped in.. lolx.. brian was the best.. really like mr bean.. u muz wake the clip to understand.. by tt time.. everyone was coming to our room.. the grand entrance by nick brian and rich.. the hardo gay pose.. everytime they entered.. funny.. played bridged again.. till 2 plus.. the next day the pastor was like 'we noe got pple play duno wad till 2am ah'.. i juz smiled.. lolx..

day 3.. same thing.. woke up at 8 plus.. worship and teachin again.. muz say the material was useful.. youths and senior pple.. guessed wad we did during the break?? u guessed it.. slp.. got to apologise to clara for not going to the waterfall again.. was too tired.. sorry.. maybe tt was a blessin?? had enuf batt life for the campfire.. the campfire was fun loh.. had the usual games.. then there was the outrite sabo.. the game 7-up.. swee swee my turn i was no.7 .. matt had to help me say 7.. sian diao.. so kena sabo loh.. my forfeit was to do the chicken dance.. okie lah.. not so bad.. i had the kids dancing wif me.. thou i kinda cmi at it.. but it was fun.. the surprise was the cake for the june babies.. if not bad enuf.. me and matt were the ones cutting the cake.. explains y the sizes were inconsistent.. lolx.. then muz take pix wif the b'dea boy rite.. so cake went flying.. pei lin the sabo queen got sabo as well.. gd job rich.. had to wash up after all the fun..

the question.. who to SSF(stack stack fun)?? and the hero was.. Rich.. sorry dude.. so.. the phrase tt would start it all.. rich, can u help me find my watch.. lolx.. he came in.. and we all noe wad happened.. sorry clara for freakin u out.. there were 6 of us on top of him?? couldn't tell.. i was directly above rich.. glad to say to teach many how to play bridge.. but brian ah.. muz observe more.. other than tt.. the camp was overall a fun and interactive one..

for those who din went.. u missed out on alot.. sad tt we had to leave the resort.. coz rich had to meet his parents.. the journey back was abit saddening thou.. the up part was the kfc part.. lolx.. nick and matt went to buy 2 big buckets of chicken for the youth.. 9 of us.. and we realised we were like 200m from the 2nd link.. jokes.. tt's abt all.. yet to post of the pix coz my com gt some prob.. stupid spyware!! out for now..

thinkin!!

2006-06-02T22:39:00.000+08:00

oi chloe.. juz wan to say.. ur hella fun to disturb.. lolx.. to rich.. hapi b'dea dude.. 21st b'dea seems weird rite.. alot going thru ur mind..

currently at a dilemna.. shld i be nice and change duties with my colleague?? i had 2 weekdays.. after changing.. i now hv 1 weekday and 1 friday.. while he from 2 fridays become 1 weekday and 1 friday.. yet.. he could still say i being unfair.. wth?? i juz kept quiet.. then i heard he waned change the other friday.. ????? think i wont change my duty wif him if he does.. but.. honestly.. this guy is not anyone irritatin.. he juz very helpful.. to the extent he gets arrowed all the time.. these r the thing every1 will feel in future.. to be a nice person and help or defend urself and risked being called names..

anyway.. planned out my leave le.. and i gt a reply from SIM.. been accepted.. but still appealin to SMU.. its the same degree.. but i wan to exp the uni life..

been readin my frenz's blog.. realised tt i hv a few gd frenz from army.. going thru ocs.. same formation.. same camp.. blessed to noe them.. one qn i wan ask is.. isit possible to noe gd frenz fast?? or does it take time to noe each other or after u parted ways then u realise they were the ones u depended on when u were in need?? as i draw nearer to ord.. i'm 1/2 hapi 1/2 sad.. glad tt i'm leavin hell.. sad tt i may lose contact and more imptly my future.. esp the next 2 yrs.. wad will i do?? wad can i do??

do i seem like a hapi go lucky guy?? always jokin and being a nice target to aim.. i noe only a few hv seen me pissed off b4.. but nowadays.. i feel like blowin up more often.. y?? no comments.. time to do more reflection..

kiez lah.. time to go pack my stuff for church camp!!!!!!!!! wee..

tiring days

2006-05-31T22:33:00.000+08:00

been a long 3 days since sun.. fri cycle as safety.. sun go east coast cycle.. mon go camp early to faciliate NS men.. tues go early to be safety again.. cycle again.. 2 times some more.. legs like jelly.. then at nite went MOS.. y did i go?? shag still go.. then then.. tt's it.. lolx..

missed the worship sessin on sunday.. y ah?? y i nt there?? really irritated when i dun go gt so many things going on.. nvm.. still gt alot of chances..

juz read my fren's blog.. ended a relationship tt lasted quite long.. duno how to console him.. maybe juz be quiet abt it?? while going thru his blog.. realised tt i've lost contact wif alot of my frenz.. pri sch.. sec sch.. poly.. army.. so many.. they r those who hv come and left.. while there r others who stay.. like church frenz.. isit weird or coincidental?? hmmm..

70 days left.. and my future is kinda still undecided.. y?? so long.. God plz give show me the way.. time to get a gd rest.. been feelin shag.. and prep for the church camp.. 2 yrs haven gone le.. those were the times when there were not many youths going.. now.. its like so many more.. a sign?? tt we r turnin back?? maybe.. He'll reveal everything in his time..

needa exercise.. who is free to exercise?? soccer?? bball?? floorball?? suntan?? swim?? if can plz jio me!! in need to kick some balls.. (no pun intended).. tt's all for now..

slow weekend

2006-05-28T22:06:00.000+08:00

startin to blog again.. this weekend is quite quiet.. for me at least.. but next week is.. CHURCH CAMP.. sad to hear tt yao sheng cant go.. but glad pple like rich can go.. lookin 4ward to noe-ing them betta..

went east coast.. u all knew.. but i haven upload the pix yet.. its not easy to arrange them okie.. there r many fun clips to view.. heez.. nic shaking butt.. poses by pple who think they look gd.. and those who smell like shit.. gaga(no typo).. a relac weekend.. i said tt b4.. got a few things to settle.. i'm suppose to be enjoying my last few weeks in the army.. but y am i so worried abt my future?? so many uncertainties.. i believe he will show me the way.. dun u guys feel like there's a invisible wall seperating alot of pple??

now.. how to clear my leave?? 28 more workin days.. 20 more days of leave.. hmmm.. ffi.. dental.. clearance form.. wad else?? make it 23 working days.. lolx.. but kinda met alot of nice pple there..

wonder ah.. y do so many pple think i like a ger and r askin me o jio her?? like i can like tt.. i not any brad pitt wad.. think i so gd wif gers meh??

end here bah.. nth coming to my head.. think chloe is retarded..

Messy

2006-05-24T23:33:00.000+08:00

realised i haven read blogs for a long time.. missed out on alot.. feel so distance from so many pple.. surprisingly, been doing qt everyday.. and its really everyday.. wad i read abt has to do wif coming back to God.. so many things pointing the same way.. y?? but wad is god's plan for me?? duno.. i'm tired.. and really need to rebuild friendships.. can see every1 is slowly drifting apart.. but i'm glad to be able to tok to pple.. has my views changed after the recent nite's tok?? nah.. i feel the same abt u peepz.. (u guys noe who i'm toking abt)

did u 2 do wad i think u did?? okie.. non of my biz.. got so many things to think abt.. also been feelin empty.. where's the meanin of life?? each passin day and moment i feel bad.. bad tt i am wasting time.. but wad can i do?? wad r the things i can do?? my heart's lost at the moment.. wad i end up doing?? dota-ing.. haiz.. been irritated wif pple and i dun wa hurt their feelings..

dun u feel like ur at crossroads often?? to do or not to do?? to go or not to go?? this blog has no structure.. juz typin wadever comes to mind.. missed tokin to frenz.. to my buddies.. i feel very very far away.. things i wan let pple noe.. but cant say.. and i hope no idolt msg me sayin dun worry.. ur not alone or wadever shit..

there r pple i look up to.. not tt they r great or anything but bcoz of some traits they hv.. for eg.. those who smile dispite being hurt.. those who always encourage others all the time even when they r on their own knees.. basically i'm toking abt some1.. but who cares.. if its meant to be.. its meant to be..

who can understand me?? am i tt complicated?? all i need is peace at heart.. i noe u will say God is the answer.. but we all noe tt's not true.. we r humans.. we need to socialise.. so lost.. duno where to go and wad to do.. lost contacts wif old frenz.. and duno how to make new ones.. dun every1 feel like this?? y do some pple get everything?? even non-christians enjoy more things than christians.. so wads the diff?? eternal life?? in return u live miserably on earth?? going against wad u wan to do and do things only for God?? is this a trial?? i mean come on lah.. be fair can anot..

haiz..i'm sad.. when will my needs be met?? U noe wad i need yet u dun gif me.. y?? been askin so long.. this r the reasons y i wan turn away.. shld u be glad tt i dun?? to live in my own dreams would be wonderful.. think i will change this blog.. i dun wan some pple to read this.. esp those who will tok to me abt wad i wrote..

hypocrispy.. dun like it.. yet i got to live wif it.. sometimes i feel like swearin.. and i noe i will look damn fierce.. but will u not irritate me??

so after writing all these.. i duno wads the pt.. f*** it.. maybe i shld juz erase everything.. maybe.. erase the history of this person writing this.. lolx.. feel so sadist.. but then again.. its my blog.. gaga..

there's some1 i like but i wont say i like her.. coz.. so many pple like her.. y would she like me?? rie?? if u can guess who u r then come ask me.. if not.. carry on thinking..

2006-04-30T21:10:00.000+08:00

doing this for the sake of having an april entry.. so many things happened.. but i dun wan to rem.. tt;s all..

Gd Day??

2006-03-05T22:39:00.000+08:00

isit a gd day?? tt the newsletter is out?? i hope so.. got to sit down and hv a AAR.. but ya.. i noe those mistakes cant be put on any one in particular but they can be corrected.. but to do so i'll need everyone's truthfully and helpful comments.. got to handle it professionally..

wad else happened?? trying to remember which shoe to buy.. and.. somehow things seem to be at a standstill.. i duno wad to do.. do i want to ORD?? weird as it may be.. but i'm uncertain abt my future.. maybe tt is y i dun wan to ORD so fast.. am i enjoying myself.. i duno the ans.. its true i got alot of freedom.. but.. at wad expense?? my life?? frenz??

do i look cheerful and hapi?? if i do.. then gd job jay.. keep up te good work.. bcoz.. i dun feel sad or disappointed or hurt?? i dun feel anything.. tt's not gd rite.. how can a human not feel anything?? or has my heart turn cold?? i hope not.. really..

lookin all ard.. pple everywhere.. children hving fun.. while i am super free.. maybe.. i'm scared and worried abt the future.. where am i heading to.. wad shall i become.. i noe the answers will come sooner rather than ltr.. i juz need courage to face it.. think i look back into history too much tt i dont look 4ward?? do i?? but which way is 4ward?? i'm abit lost at the moment..

anyway i'm going out-field for 3 days 2 nitez.. so tt means alot of time to ponder abt things.. till i come back.. take care guyz and gerz..

Wad happened???

2006-03-05T02:08:00.000+08:00

wad happened sia?? to the newsletter?? trying my best to do this prfessionally.. yet.. got pple write abt things can write until so -ve.. then can print out without askin.. wads a hp for?? can call me in the morning at 9am.. then cant call IN THE LATE MORNING?? like 11am?? where's the responsibility?? trying to act responsible?? no wonder so many pple dont like the church.. no wonder its not growing.. but ya.. its true.. face it.. try as it maybe.. juz look at the history.. where is the chain of command?? responsibility??

so wad now?? juz bcoz its done means it cant be undone?? No!! it will be undone.. or not done at all.. i let it be delayed for a week for pple.. and yet i get this?? not saying i dont thank those who put in REAL effort.. but at the last min u can do this?? either reprint or no newsletter.. simple as tt..

now i feel this statement is true - "support success and not failure".. feel like i'm wasting time and effort here now.. all efforts r unfruitful.. really got to move on.. juz pissed off.. is wad shuh koon said is true?? tt it is a waste of time for this newsletter?? i hope not..

haiz.. unprofessional.. or u can say noob.. sad to see so many pple blinded by the facade.. all the hypocrisy.. wake up guys.. its not as gd as it looks.. i noe some pple can see it and share the same view as me.. but i dun wan to quit.. din not since sec sch.. if not i would hv left long ago.. i'll not let them win even thou they r stubborn.. and maybe ungodly?? all those bloody politics.. its a place of worship.. and ya i like to say "if it's not for God.. it wont stand".. true enuf..

thot tt this week would end on a high note.. as usual.. no.. i noe i sound like i'm complaining.. but ya.. juz wan everyone to noe wad is going on in case u r slpin.. and y i'm like so -ve towards this.. against myself being +ve and not being assetive..

wad else to say?? disappointed..

3 wks absent..

2006-02-26T23:36:00.000+08:00

1st of all sori guys.. been bz.. wif the newsletter.. even dao some pple online.. heez.. but yup.. its 90% ready.. hope u guys would like it.. muz thanx wyne for her help.. been the most helpful despite her exams..

okie.. nearly 3 wks since i blogged.. life's been more interestin.. had lots of time to do QT.. been walkin closer to him.. feels like i'm rid of alot of burden.. u guys shld do more qt.. its helps.. i've tried to do fastin as well.. been doing it for the past wk.. wad i did was not to eat lunch and spend tt time mediating wif God.. wad else have i done?? applied for uni.. hopefully i'll get in.. really need his help.. *prays*

okie.. i noe i've not been here long.. tt means no update of pix.. below r the betta pix since the beginning of this yr..

NYE..

Tom..

Bros..

Gathering..

Y??

Y she gets the prize??

had fun at west coast.. i'll rem my head on collision wif nick.. yup.. tt big guy.. pain.. too bad din play soccer.. too little pple.. anyway met new pple.. hope to meet them more.. wif the help of the newsletter.. i think pple will noe our activites betta.. i really believe this is God's plan..

Pictures from West Coast

Game Masters

Group shot

Where the cameraman??

Lalala

Posing

All gers

lastly is today.. Matt's b'dea celebration.. his actually b'dea was yest.. 25 feb.. in case u guys duno.. had fun at party world.. and glad he enjoyed himself.. esp the cake.. think he din expect it.. neither did i.. lolx..

Matt's B'dea

B'dea boy

Hazel wif Matt

Guess who sat on him 1st?

Proper Shot wif my eyes closed

Be M.E.R.Y.

Pro Killers

V??

Questions..

2006-02-06T22:56:00.000+08:00

gt nth to say.. tt parade.. the date 24 july.. y do i think of it.. feel like a failure.. y din i make it?? wad abd life?? i'm nowhere at the moment.. nothing to anyone.. y is life so empty now?? wad can i do to make it betta?? no matter wad i do.. i still feel the same pain in me.. how do i get rid of it doc?? even when i smile.. it hurts.. the small wound tt is killing me.. the bleeding's not stopping.. will i die from it?? small yet fatal.. *ouch.. as much as i want to reach for the stars.. the pain stopping me.. how do i get rid of it..

courage will prevail in the face of adversity.. something like tt.. argh!! i cant stand up.. too tired.. too weak.. is this when God shows himself?? at the lowest pt?? is this even the lowest pt?? the sky seems so far away.. i saw a rainbow today.. its beautiful.. one of God's creation.. then.. am i his beautiful creation?? y do i feel ugly instead??

184 days to ORD.. but i dont wan to reach tt day so fast.. wad is after my ORD?? uncertainty.. can i get into Uni?? i'm prepared to not get in.. all along in life i've been failing.. how or wad am i going to pass?? i'm worried abt the future.. i need help.. HELP!! hear ur child crying out and answer his prayers.. it's been too long.. when will u come.. he's on the brink of death.. r u gg to let him die then bring him back to life?? muz the old go b4 the new comes?? how do u noe which is the new?? its the same flesh and blood..

feel so hapless.. which way to go?? i need help.. i dont even hv the strength to look after myself.. who will look after me?? and.. how do i look afer anyone?? feel.. useless.. all those facades.. always opposite of the real thing.. the real feelings r always hidden.. how to find them?? how to show them?? to whom?? y muz it be shown??

so many questions go thru my mind.. i wish i could be simple sometimes.. naive.. happy.. juz like when i was a child.. no worries in life.. but this cannot be.. pple grow up.. take on responsibilities.. become stronger.. the more responsibilities.. the weaker one is?? wrong.. one does not become weaker.. its juz tt the responsibilities become heavier.. muz one take all the responsibilities?? "cast all ur troubles unto me".. "do ur best and i will do the rest".. am i doing my best?? and if so.. wad is the rest??

i need the pillar of fire to follow.. or are my eyes blinded?? even so.. i can feel the heat rite?? i'm scared of the cold.. so shldn't i be attracted to the heat?? haiz.. so many things to answer.. do i still need IT?? tt IT tt has been missing for as long as i hv been on this earth?? let me find IT..